It's the sun beam that
shines through my curtains
that reminds me of you.
It's the night sky that
kind of makes me
wish you were beside
me in the lawn
watching it.
It's your little
whispers that got
stuck in the lobes of my brain
that drove me mad and
it's the vague imprint
of your face on my
sheets that make me
long for every inch of
you that I tied myself
onto.

Don't let go now.

Like the smoke I gradually inhale,
I tie myself to you.
And at dawn I wail,
Wondering if you're feeling the same way too.

I gaze at the mass of stars in the sky,
Thinking of the patterns hidden in the constellation.
I sit by the porch and ask myself why;
I crave your touch and affection.

Ecstatic in the morning,
Uninterrupted waves of misery by night.
Like canoes in the sea sailing,
I constantly tell myself to hold on tight.

Through the cracks were gleams of daylight,
Connecting to the emptiness in my soul only you could cure.
You brush your hands through my hair as I squeal in delight,
Right there, I was caught up in a rapture.

It's 2:59 am
and I love you

and when bits of me
vanish and  i can still smell
your hair on the pillow
that you slept on, your
favorite shirt hung on
my closet door,

i think i may love
you more than i did
a whole lot before.

But there's something behind
that calmness...
Something that I think of
every now and then.
Something that reminds me
of wildflowers and
the way I've always admired
people with beautiful spines.
Something that takes me back
to places I've been to once
and longed for right when I left.
Something that stirs inside me
when I hear all these little voices
in my head that scream
my imperfections.
Every day, without any warning,
I trip on the good things.
It's like I'm on a deserted alley
and all I could hear is my
heart pumping...