I’m really insecure
I hide how I really feel about you
I keep coming back for more
Hoping you feel the same way too
I’m letting myself get torn
By not telling you the truth
My heart already feels worn
I just need to quit being a ******* *****
And let you see my view

The steady heartbeat of the wave
The sudden explosion against the rocks
The rough, sinking sand of my past
Then the smooth, calming sand of us
The sun hovering on the horizon
The silent stars full of lust
The moon glistening our reflection
The sweet echo of what is love

I never knew how much you would mean
And I never knew how bad I would feign for ya
But it’s just the heat through my veins
And the days of haze we blew through our brains
But uh, your valiant smile
The way your lips shape your face
It’s the sweetened eyes
That light up the place
I’m just caught in a daze
Overwhelmed with amaze
I can’t get my eye off you
I’m stuck in a gaze

If I spilt my heart, would you be the heat that makes it evaporate?
If something was bothering me, would you be there to listen to me elaborate?
If I scribbled my sins on every lie I hold within,
and lose track of my mind and not know where to begin,
would you lift up my chin and whip the tears off my skin?
Would you be the bright moonlight on the dark blue sea,
as we dangle our legs off the dock, knowing we’re meant to be?
Would you tell me our future from what you foresee?
We’re like a growing tree.
Even through the stormy nights, we still stand strong.
Over the years, our rings remind us of what went wrong.
It gives us strength and helps our relationship prolong.
We’ll show the world that two hearts belong, together.

I miss being the girl
The girl who had your heart
No *******, straight love from the start
No tears, just smiles, but now I’m torn apart
Because you have to have it your way
You never listened to what I had to say
You pushed me away, you made me feel betrayed
Now I’m just that girl
That girl who will never mean the same
That girl you wish you never claimed
That girl you accuse of why you feel ashamed to love again
I had to pick myself up and lift up my own chin
I had to tell myself lies to **** the pain within
I had to force my depressed lips to put on a fake grin
Just because I’ll never be the girl
Someone will come along and take that place
I hope when you look at her you see my face
And I hope you embrace every memory she has replaced
I hope you feel better now that she has defaced me
I miss being the girl
No pain, just love
The girl
The one you held above
No matter how hard I pushed and shoved
The girl
The one you were proud to say you loved
Now I’m just *that girl

Your presence disgusts me
Rusts me, rips me open and thrusts me
Forcing me to suffocate because you distrust me
No reason to hate, you force the lust in me
Pry open my eyes, tell me I must see
Your life meaning is a lie
Self-centered, heart cold as winter, numbly bitter but you still shine
The devils mentor, deep nail splinter, nauseous jitter but you’re still mine
Expect the worse, immerse yourself first, but your worlds reversed
Tilted, head to the ground, all your smiles turn to frowns
Your brain pounds from the sound of your scream
As your lungs fill with water, just drown and dream
You tell yourself it’s over but it’s not what it seems
The darkest hour of the never ending night sky
The brightest flower, the one that catches your eye
The most sin filled child hiding behind a disguise
It’s all just a lie, we’ll never understand
We live our hell here on earth and pray for heaven in the end

Your presence disgusts me
Rusts me, rips me open and thrusts me
Forcing me to suffocate because you distrust me
No reason to hate, you force the lust in me
Pry open my eyes, tell me I must see
Your life meaning is a lie
Self-centered, heart cold as winter, numbly bitter but you still shine
The devils mentor, deep nail splinter, nauseous jitter but you’re still mine
Expect the worse, immerse yourself first, but your worlds reversed
Tilted, head to the ground, all your smiles turn to frowns
Your brain pounds from the sound of your scream
As your lungs fill with water, just drown and dream
You tell yourself it’s over but it’s not what it seems
The darkest hour of the never ending night sky
The brightest flower, the one that catches your eye
The most sin filled child hiding behind a disguise
It’s all just a lie, we’ll never understand
We live our hell here on earth and pray for heaven in the end