even though you say
I don't matter
I want to disagree
over your noise and chatter

once I was a smile
until you took it away
once I was a flower
loved every day

but now my wish is to simply be
a wave across the sea
I would roll into tomorrow
and simply just "be"

one day i know you will see
a strength about me never shown
enough to take a few steps back
but this time you will be alone

all the tears that I ever cried for you,
you soon will remember
when chill of winter comes your way
right after Indian Summer September

and maybe you will never miss
my heart that was so true
perhaps it will be because
it was always just about just you

the way you love so shallow
the kindness never given
even though I always forgave of you yours
my flaws were not ever forgiven

and yes I surely will miss
our plans we made together
but I am pretty sure
your love changes with the weather

I was always the one who took
such care of your heart and being
but now my eyes are wide open
and I am hating what I'm seeing

and maybe you love me in the way that you know
the cussing and mental abuse
but one day I will be so long gone
and you'll have to find another to use

but please don't find another like me
who you will trick into believing
that you most love her dearly
as you treat her like you're leaving

let her be, let her grow... before she met you,
she smiled
don't invade her heart with what you call "love"
because inside she is still a child

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I cannot live with You—
It would be Life—
And Life is over there—
Behind the Shelf

The Sexton keeps the Key to—
Putting up
Our Life—His Porcelain—
Like a Cup—

Discarded of the Housewife—
Quaint—or Broke—
A newer Sevres pleases—
Old Ones crack—

I could not die—with You—
For One must wait
To shut the Other’s Gaze down—
You—could not—

And I—Could I stand by
And see You—freeze—
Without my Right of Frost—
Death’s privilege?

Nor could I rise—with You—
Because Your Face
Would put out Jesus’—
That New Grace

Glow plain—and foreign
On my homesick Eye—
Except that You than He
Shone closer by—

They’d judge Us—How—
For You—served Heaven—You know,
Or sought to—
I could not—

Because You saturated Sight—
And I had no more Eyes
For sordid excellence
As Paradise

And were You lost, I would be—
Though My Name
Rang loudest
On the Heavenly fame—

And were You—saved—
And I—condemned to be
Where You were not—
That self—were Hell to Me—

So We must meet apart—
You there—I—here—
With just the Door ajar
That Oceans are—and Prayer—
And that White Sustenance—
Despair—

forgive me, I am new
I didn't know it could hurt this much

long distance is hard, I know
but did you have to throw away
what I sent you?

gaps, I tried to close
how foolish my heart is
I feel so stupid now

I thought we were close
because I believed all of your
....lies

little pieces of me
became little pieces of you

except when my heart breaks
yours is not broken

no you, stay together
it is me that falls to pieces