It’s the constant fear
That I don’t belong here
That I should bow out
Before we’re attached to the idea
That I could settle down
Maybe learn to not freak out
That at the end of the day I have nothing
To yell or cry about
I’m just a pretty face
Who typically knows
Just what to say
And if I had it my way
I’d have it any other way
Sometimes I wonder
What name
Glimmers on your phone screen
When I reply to your “hellos" and “heys"
I’m just a bearded chin
Running on momentum
Held together by bobby pins
And regardless of my yesterdays
My body wakes in aches and pains
Psychosomatic
Hypomanic
You only think twice
When normal’s a panic
And most night's I think that I'm the one to blame
As if "guilty" somehow took my first name
I was just a waste of time
You found yourself
And left me outside
And sometimes I don’t blame you
I just ask myself
“Who really replaced who?”
But when I’m not around
Will you notice it?
When you ignore my presence
Will you at least feel it when I’m absent?
But hey be careful with this
We lost a piece the last time that you broke it
And it’s the constant fear
That you’ll forget me in a year
I was temporary at best
A sin yet to be confessed
It’s just a tough pill to swallow
That some sinners won’t be saints