when i look at her i know that i want to do anything for her
whether it's open a door or move a mountain, i'll do them all
i'll sit and i'll watch her lips move as she talks and the motion of her mouth is mesmerizing and i can't stop watching
or listening
every word, every syllable is poetry and i can't believe that it's me who is hearing it
and i love her
and i don't know if she really knows it but i do
i'd give ten years of my life to spend ten minutes with her in my arms and i'd spend every second just asking her to look at me with those eyes
and to say something
anything
but those eyes, whether she's laughing or crying, whether she's angry or she's inviting me to bed
insisting me to bed
i can't take my eyes off of those eyes
and she holds me with them
even when i'm trying to leave
to work, to do all and any of those things that life says are important to do but which take me away from her
she pouts
she's playing
is she playing?
come to bed she says
and i want to
how i want to
but it's that thrill, that thrill of a call, of a new note, of a memory of her day
and i can't wait to know what she wants to share
to share with me
with ME
because i love her
should i tell her?
i should
i can't
i won't i can't i should but no
it can't
but maybe
and then i think about her voice
her fingers grazing my arm
and i know
that my body wants her body
because my mind wants her mind
my soul wants her soul
i love her
she doesn't think anyone can
she's wrong
but i'm too afraid to prove it

i didn't think
it would be so hard
to let go of someone
i never held

you could never see me the way that i needed you to see me
and i could never see you the way that you wanted me to see you
and so we stumbled past each other
blind
groping for something
we'd never find
and never hold

without your words, without your face,
this screen is just an empty space
on which i try to write the thoughts
i could always tell to you

and you were so close, you were so real
that i could almost swear to feel
the gentle press of your fingertips
and now i miss that, too

falling in
was too easy
falling out
is too hard

i told you that i had to leave
and it's true
i did, i had to

not because of anything you did
or anything i did for that matter
i told myself not to get too close
so close

but my heart missed the message
and suddenly there you were
inside of me
and there i was
left wanting
to be inside of you

and yes of course i meant to say that
and if you were ever to read this
you'd smile
admit it
but no matter how well we fit
how much we laugh
in my mind i know
it can't...
we can't...

and so i had to leave
to walk away
to go like i said i never would

but it's not because
you were too much to handle
it's that you were too much
to never hold

so i told you that i had to leave
and it's true
i did, i had to

but i told you too that i had so loved you
and it's true
i did, i had to

i just wish that i had known
sooner
what falling in love with you
was like because
i never would have tried it
with anyone else
if i had
it's like tripping
and falling...
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