You know every minute awake with you is worth more than any hour sleeping without you.

After all the up and downs over past few days, I had some relief the moment I saw your reflection on the mirrow, smiling, ready to spend some quality time together. The instant I held you in my arms all the doubts and fears were lifted from my mind. I wish you could stay, I wish you would stay.

The day arrived and I thought you would not be there, I held my breath for so long, waiting to see if you would decide to come along on this adventure, when I saw your bright eyes looking into mine nothing else matter.
I wanted to make this journey one that you would never forget, one that you would cherish til your last day on this earth, one that would show you how our lives could be if you chose to be with me.
Watching you smile, holding my hand, telling me that it was the most amazing time of your life is all it took for me to completely fall into your arms and never want to let go, now I'm holding my breath hoping that it won't be longer than five days and a wake for you to tell me what I want to hear... that you want to spend the rest of your life with me.

You in my mind before bed, I miss holding you, smelling you, keeping you warm.

I can't make her love me or change the way she feels about other people, I can't take away the pain, the guilt or despair she's experiencing. I can't sit back and watch as all these emotions consume the beautiful soul that lies within her beautiful body. What I can do is show her how much I love her by giving her the freedom she needs and allow her to be herself again without any doubt that she made the right decision, if eventually she realizes that what she chose was not the right thing, I can only hope that I can love her again the way that I love her now.

So long since I kissed your lips, yet when I dream of you, your scent livens up my senses.
My heart races thinking you are next to me, touching, caressing but it is all just a dream.
The only way I can have you the way I want you, it's in my dreams. My fears will never allow me  to let you know how much I cared, that I loved you and that I let you go, just not in my dreams.

I've had you in my mind all day, wondering what time you will call, so I could hear your voice. I wanted you to stay last night so that I could show you all the things you keep depriving yourself from. I wanted to fill your body with all the pleasure you keep running away from.

I finally realized that the old saying is true, you don’t know what you have till it’s gone. I know that now with the coming of every dawn.
   We can’t go back and change what happened in the past, we can only pray and hope that the next one will last. I need to calm down and quit taking things to heart, that’s my problem and it’s usually the biggest part.
   You can’t make someone love you no matter what you say or do, I have learned that from you. I’m pretty sure you were the love of my life and you got away, I’ll pay dearly for this mistake for the rest of my life... what can I say.

There is something inside of me that tells me I should run away from you because there are so many things about you that are not what I want in my life, but I find myself wanting to be with you every second of the day.

It is weird how you can love someone and not know who they are, I really am amazed that you let things go so far.
    If you really were not happy here then why did you stay. You could have left many times and went your own way.
    I thank God for keeping you here all this time because if you would not have stayed I would have drowned in my own tears.
    It has been years since I heard from you last, how can you not remember someone you loved from your past?
   It is strange how things work and I do believe it is true, that some day in the future I will run into you, I don't know when and I can't say where I just know it will happen somewhere, someday.

As time goes by you will learn that the people you trusted the most are the first ones to betray you. That when you are in need, those whom you least expect will come thru, become your pillars and will give you strength to continue moving forward.
However never be afraid to trust, this process repeats itself over and over, you will learn which bridges to burn and which to keep.
You are stronger already because you know who you are and what you are worth, they don't know what they are losing.

You are the first thing on my mind when I wake up and the last thing when I go to sleep, then I have you in my dreams.