Doubt,
How it floods my being.
You,
You the boy,
Brought this upon me.
Makes me wonder,
Nervous,
Anxious,
Deep down,
Deep inside,
Behind the cold unyielding exterior.

I want you to give me all of your attention,
Attention every moment,
Like a selfish, insecure child.
You bring out this,
This beast.
How it consumes me!
Be mine,
Be,
Mine!
No more charades
The walls,
How they crumble at your touch!

The beast deep in me,
it fast approaches!
Perhaps,
Just maybe,
If you run away now,
You will escape it,
escape its clutches.
For I fear,
Oh how I fear,
the way it takes control!
It swallows my mind whole,
A love sick creature from the depths below.
One track mind.

Please,
I beg you,
Leave now!
Leave before it takes us,
Before the crash,
Before the burn,
The tears
The sleepless nights.

This weak heart,
This tainted heart of mine,
Cannot bear the weight of the beast,
Green eyes,
Pacing,
Staring at the clock.

I fear the the beast is not as patient as I.
I feel it creep up,
Squeezing my stomach tight,
Taking the oxygen from my lungs.
Oh how it takes me into its grasp!

I implore you!
Run!
Be free!
Don’t look back!
For the beast,
It fast approaches!


Love does run fast....

Sometimes things just feel tight,
You try to laugh it off,
Something about our love doesn’t seem right,
Can’t you see the damage done,
The cracks in my sanity,
From when you run,
Away from the question a hand you see,
If you love me or her,
If you feel like  this is supposed to be,


Can’t give in,
Don’t want to let go,
But you break my heart  to pieces,
You’re messing with my flow,
I know that there is always tomorrow,
But perhaps that’s too soon


You don’t seem to comprehend this game,
As I won’t be the one played
Stuck here, looking  back on all the times I whispered your name,
I wish that you could hear,
Hear me everytime,
When my heart cries out,
When your doubts are on my mind,
So maybe if I write this,
And add a beat to this rhyme,
You will hear me loud and clear,
No more wasting time

Can;t give in,
Don’t want to let go,
But you break my heart  to pieces,
You’re messing with my flow
I know that there is always tomorrow,
But perhaps that’s too soon

I have the heart of a poet,
So easily shattered by your touch,
Be careful what you hold on to,
Because it just might be too much,
As it drips from your hand,
Piece by piece,
Never knowing where it will land,
Never having any peace.

Can’t give in,
Don’t want to let go,
But you break my heart  to pieces,
You’re messing with my flow
I know that there is always tomorrow,
But perhaps that’s too soon

Tonight,
You brought tears of joy to my eyes.
The first man to do such a thing.
You have made me feel,
Made me feel,
Wanted,
Cared for,
For the first time in oh so long.

You don’t wish to toy with my heart,
You don’t wish to use me.
You want to love me,
To love the unloveable.

You are brave to have climbed the wall around my heart.
Slowly, but surely.
The champion.

Now you are king.
But now I wonder,
What shall you do with my city,
My core,
My heart?
Will you rule it to ruins with war and betrayal?
Or perhaps build it to memorable greatness,
Making it truly immortal?

This is your choice,
For all I can do is sit beside you,
A loyal subject,
And perhaps a foolish one at that.

You say that you have wanted me all along,
Who knows if that’s true.
But somewhere deep inside,
I somehow knew that you were something to me.
Perhaps my inside knew before I did.

The scars you left,
Tried and true,
Are still lingering between us,
Keeping me away from you,
You promise that it will be different this time,
That you won’t do me wrong,
But the memories haven’t faded,
When the pain was just too strong,
I give all that I have,
Just to see you smile.
But something in me says that you will only stay for a little while
And out in the cold I’ll be,
Left on the floor like I was before,
To pick up what is left of me,
When I hear you two’s song on the radio,
It makes me cry inside,
Because it reminds me of what I’ll never be,
Of how important I will never be in your eyes.