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Josian de Aqua Jun 2014
I ask
I dreamed
             I wished,
                 But it has never come to be.
                     In my head I can see
                        The slow dance that seems like it will never be

                              He's held me in his arms
                                 Laid his head on my chest
                                     But never has he offered me a slow dance
                                         Well at least not yet

                                             I am not especially romantic
                                                Never expecting fine gifts or flowers
                                                  I would much rather sit and laugh with him for hours

                                                       But this one little thing
                                                          S­o simple
                                                          ­  It does not require a ring
                                                            ­  Or a single grandeur gesture
                                                         ­        No music
                                                           ­         Or candles
                                                         ­             
                                                                ­      If he knew how much it meant to me
                                                              ­           Would he still not do it?
                                                             ­               All I want is one slow dance
                                                           ­                    As I put my whole world in his hands.
Josian de Aqua Jun 2014
We write love poems,
We swear that we mean it,
Swear on the moon
The stars
The great beyond

I wrote you love poems
I swear that I meant them
But not now.
Not in this moment,
When that once hopeful glow around my heart
Turns to hopelessness
To memories of injury...again

The monsters that possess your tongue taint me
The scars are now too great in number
The heaviness of your shadow bears down as if it were my own shame
But it is your's

I swear  that I meant those love poems,
Every word

But oh how easily  words can fly away with the winds of our pasts...
For LeRudian
Josian de Aqua Jun 2014
Waking up to the open sky
You’re the whispering scream in my atmosphere
Your laughter echoing infinitely it seems
The star that’s out of my reach
But I wish on it anyways
I’m my own star
With a light of my own
But I used to be a part of something bigger,
Something greater than myself
Two energies entwined shining bright
You and I
We weren’t just anything


Supernova
We outshined our galaxy
Exploding like we meant it
Feeling heat like the sun
Scarred and burned from our own fire
On your back
On my soul
Shattered across the universe
Into a million immortal pieces
We aren’t going to fade out so quick

You say that the orbit,
The round and round,
It was all just my game
Josian de Aqua Jun 2014
I have looked into your eyes once, but I will never forget it.
When I looked into your eyes, I saw something amazing shining from within.
Something stirred inside of me and a feeling of sweet restlessness washed over me.
No one has ever moved so much with one glance.
Your ice-blue gaze rekindled my belief that there is pure beauty in this world.
A beauty untainted by the hands of time and the unfortunate circumstances created by man.
There is something deep inside of you that is breathtaking




KP
Josian de Aqua Jun 2014
Every day, I come closer,
Closer to you,
Even though you are miles away,
Sitting here,
Sitting here is all that I need,
As long as I am thinking of you.

I don’t want to want you,
I don’t want to need you,
But you love me for me,
And that’s hard to come by.

I had always thought that my heart was cold,
As cold as ice,
But you took this heart,
And made it whole.
The puzzle has been solved,
I am complete.

I don’t want to want you,
I don’t want to need you,
But you love me for me,
And that’s hard to come by.

My daddy wasn’t good to me,
My mama always cries,
Stuck in the middle,
You found me,
Just in time.

I don’t want to want you,
I don’t want to need you,
But you love me for me,
And that’s hard to come by.
Josian de Aqua Jun 2014
Doubt,
How it floods my being.
You,
You the boy,
Brought this upon me.
Makes me wonder,
Nervous,
Anxious,
Deep down,
Deep inside,
Behind the cold unyielding exterior.

I want you to give me all of your attention,
Attention every moment,
Like a selfish, insecure child.
You bring out this,
This beast.
How it consumes me!
Be mine,
Be,
Mine!
No more charades
The walls,
How they crumble at your touch!

The beast deep in me,
it fast approaches!
Perhaps,
Just maybe,
If you run away now,
You will escape it,
escape its clutches.
For I fear,
Oh how I fear,
the way it takes control!
It swallows my mind whole,
A love sick creature from the depths below.
One track mind.

Please,
I beg you,
Leave now!
Leave before it takes us,
Before the crash,
Before the burn,
The tears
The sleepless nights.

This weak heart,
This tainted heart of mine,
Cannot bear the weight of the beast,
Green eyes,
Pacing,
Staring at the clock.

I fear the the beast is not as patient as I.
I feel it creep up,
Squeezing my stomach tight,
Taking the oxygen from my lungs.
Oh how it takes me into its grasp!

I implore you!
Run!
Be free!
Don’t look back!
For the beast,
It fast approaches!


Love does run fast....
Josian de Aqua Jun 2014
Afraid,
The strong one,
Hands on my hips,
Carrying everyones weight on my shoulders,
The rock,
The stone column,
But I disappear in a way,
Drowning amongst the needs of others,
Give me air,
Save,
Revive,
I saved you,
So who will be my hero?

Frightened,
I fear it,
the very same thing you say sets us free.
Afraid to be free?
No,
Afraid to let go
The walls have been built,
built strong and sturdy,
I sit,
Sit and look down at you,
Trying to learn how to be like you,
But alas,
I will never be.

Confused,,
I look down,
And there he is.
Who is he?
I wonder,
Ponder,
He must be,
Must be crazy,
He looks up,
No one has dared to do that before.

Go away,
Leave me be,
I am unlovable,
The fates have chosen for me,
Chosen for me a life of solitude.

Cursed,
All I have ever known is good bye,
For I am never allowed,
Allowed to speak those 3 holy words,
I,
Love,
You.

Because for one to truly love,
one must let go.

I fear that,
letting go.
Believing that if I did,
I would fall into tiny pieces,
Left to be trampled on,
no one to glue me back together,
Fix me,
Save me.

Uneasy,
He doesn’t leave the wall,
He sits,
Calls up,
Waits,
But for how long?
He is a fool,
I cannot be loved,
For my tender heart,
It cowers behind stone,
Impenetrable.
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