When I worry I do nothing
When I don't know what to do
I carry on
Acting with the same enthusiasm

At times I don't know what I'm doing
I just wander through the day
Ending up at the same place each time

I'm upset at the disappointment I bring
At causing grief for those who don't deserve it
The years of servitude from those I love ending up as waste due to my actions
This is not living

Facades of emotion keep me from giving up
Creating characters to fit my situation
But day after day
The show must go on

Turmoil all around you
Situations you can't control
The feeling of fear growing each day
Letting down those you love
Responsibilities putting you in a corner of fear
The weight of a family on your shoulders

I can't keep doing this
Without any help
Feigning pride to placate those you love
To quell my fears is to free my mind
I want to provide a source of fulfillment
For those who love me
But all I feel is failure

Disappointment

Little buddy
Reliant friend
Stream goes strong
Yellow tinge

Forceful power
Sends the water
To the island
It's final destination

I see my friend
Little buddy
Grow from nothing
Knees like putty

I can't help but feel
Scared and quiet
My future is going past me
Responsibilities stacked higher and higher

The road to the future
Is long and twisted
The stream to the past
Is solemn and wistful

I like oranges
tangy, sweet, juicy
symbols of fertility and health
only when I eat them can I experience the benefits
resting in my stomach
stewing with previous contents
fertility and health melting in a cauldron of acid
my stomach

is big

oranges.