I know I don't deserve anything.
Love.
Happiness.
Friends.
Apologies.
Acceptance.
Life.
But most importantly... You.
It's not cause of the things I've done in the past.
No, that's irrelevant.
It's because of who I am.
How I act.
Because knowing this, let's you know what I will do.
You know I can't, scratch that, I won't change.
That's why you're drifting away.
It's why you won't accept my apologies.
It's understandable.
I can't blame you.
Only myself.
I say it over and over again.
Knowing you don't care.
I say I don't care anymore but it's just a lie.
But you deserve better and we both know it.
I lied when I said I don't deserve anything. There's a lot of things I deserve.
Loneliness.
Emptiness.
Misery.
And lastly, life... without you.
Sincerely,
Me.

Life is a lot like cartoons.
You thought you understood things when you actually didn't.
You thought everything was nice and peachy but it actually wasn't.
You laughed at all the jokes you could never fully understand.
Do you remember being a child full of curiosity?
Asked so many questions just to get the same answer,
"You'll understand when you're older"
Well now that you understand things was it worth it?
You can understand all the sick jokes.
You know all the cruel stories behind everything.
Realized the creators used them to their own benefits.
Was it worth losing all the innocence?
I honestly want to go back.
Back to when I was younger.
When I could watch the cartoons without the subliminal nasty jokes.
When I thought the things were happy and didn't know the sad or ugly stories behind them.
I want the innocence I had back then.
I always thought the saying "ignorance is bliss" was crazy thought.
Now, it's the only thing I'm truly happy to understand.

We were all born in different places
We were all raised in different places
We were granted different faces
That's just some of our graces

So why do we all strive to be the same
To look the same and play the same game
With nothing to gain but twitter and tumblr fame

Other people, that's who we try to please
At the cost of our own originality, individuality
And replace this with things like ignorance and brutality

I'm not gonna lie, I was like that once
Wanted to be the class clown and act like a dunce

Pleasing other people really to no avail
Entertaining others while my classes is what I fail

Doing favors for others trying to cheer them up
While they all look at me like I'm their little pup

Tired of being disrespected
Doing things that others requested

So finally I decided to look in the mirror and say "STOP,
From now on Ima do it all for me"