Everyday not a single emotion plays on this face.
No not even one.
The stern stare is not out of rage but protection.

Not for me.
For you.
The most dangerous demons are the ones we never see.
I am but the crazy football player.
And yet I am an onion.

Many see and experience me.
Few get close to my core
Even fewer get to the core.
On the outside I am rough and brutish
On the inside I am protective, honest, and caring.
At my core.
I am not human.

I feel no empathy.
Not even sympathy.
I am crazy.
No I am insane.
I am a monster.
Ripping, cutting, tearing, slashing are my dreams.

Everyone is my subject.
No one is safe.
So I keep that side of me locked away.
In a cage made of my hopes for myself.
My last and only line against it.
It's never ending rage.
My never ending rage.
So locked it will stay.

And only sorrow fills my bones.
A depression in my very essence.
A longing to be normal.
A desperate cry never heard lives in me.

I always feel this sorrow.
The rage ever steady in it.
The desperate need to cry.
The desperate need to mutilate.
My desperate need for help.

I have learned though.
Learned that others need help.
So I am there for them.
I help them.
Encourage them.
And even fall in love with a few.
But I cannot love.
I won't let myself.
So I smile at them.
Friends.
Loved ones.
Everyone.
It is all I can do.
No one should worry about me.
No one needs to worry about me.
I'm fine.
Perfectly fine.
A smile a day keeps the insanity at bay.
See my smile?

I've never had that crisp good nature
I never want to have it
I am no superman
I am a Brawn
Young
Powerful
Indestructible
Unstoppable
Stronger
***** your rules
Now i am free of you
***** your perfect mold
***** them all
Saving a cat
**** THAT
Why not a bank vault?
Save a few dollars from the government
The thrill of battle
The ecstasy of intoxicating cash
The sweet taste of challenge
Always stronger
I am not your hero
I'd just as soon rob you as save you
I'll save you only because
Without you I have no one to rob!
I am the Antihero
I am the perfect defender of man
**** or save i can do both
I am not perfect
A rampage is as effective as a ****** round
I am the hero in the shadows
I am Power
I am Freedom
I am Imperfect

The eyes of beauty truly stare at me
Working magic on my old cold heart
Erasing all pain I’ve felt with true glee
Remodeling me into a beautiful part
Knowing my pain I walk hand in hand
Inside I feel pure true indefinable love
No one woman or girl can truly stand
God’s gift to my life a true bird, a dove
Greatness awaits our new future as two
Infinity and eternity is boundlessly short
Ripped torn pieces now she is my glue
Lonely never more we are one support

The distant clop of war horses echo
The chainmails heavy like a burden
Wetting the lips like a starved gecko
The battle was like that  of Verduns
My figure now stained crimson red
My mind now haunted by dark idea
To concur we made many men dead
My truth of now existences as Gaea
Mother of all time and the titan king
Destroyer of all in ridged cold combat
The steady deep echoes of armor dings
Now its time to hang the old battle bat
Peace now constant for the new age
Time leaving a new fresh blank page

The soft flesh of children in my teeth
Their soft whimper as they bleed out
The land full of life now a mere heath
Their lands now bleached by drought
I am the unholy spawn of hells wraith
I gorge on the heart of your one love
I am the true anti messiah of all faiths
I feast on the torn bits of dead doves
I am darkness the bringer of sorrows
I am anarchy the holder of madness
I ensure there is not ever a tomorrow
I cause all the sadistic tainted sadness
I am pain I hand tie all your slipknot
I add you the list just another naught

The sound again
No the lack of
You can't hear anything
You try snapping
Nothing.
Yelling full force
Nothing.
You know you're not deaf
The world around you returns to normal sound
But it isn't right the shadows
Their deeper almost pit like
The oddity of the day pushes you
Now in a cryptic room
Cobwebs and silence
Scattered bones catch the eyes
The sound leaves again
The shadows deepen
Sound still missing you hear a sound
A something a nothing
A scratching sound
They
Scamper
Crawl
Slither
Ooze
Lurch
into the room
The darkness now trivial
These beast
No not beasts creations
Imagination run wild
The monstrosities of sleep
The monsters of fear
Death shrinks away
God flinches away
Jesus prays for your swift demise
The devil pleads for your quick end
These are long forget nightmares
The monsters that haunt man
What lives under your bed
What little toys man actually is
These are the devourers
They follow you home
The live silently
Until you notice them
The monstrosities wait
Don't try
Run and never stop
They still watch you

I lived like the community
Hated it
Today I dance in my white straight jacket
I like think of what Ive done
I am not sick
I'm happily twisted
I like crossing the line
Maybe i like that I'm not alright
I can't lie
I like losing my mind
You alright?
I feel fine!
I like being crazy!
I like my gifted mind
I like being crazy!
I like losing my mind
I'm just crazy
I like that I'm not alright!