Perhaps love is as elusive as monetary wealth is to the masses.
Perhaps love is no more a reality than the endless days we have spent melding our minds to a piece of virtual property that trades us our health for a few moments of excitement and a few hours absent of boredom.
My friend, love eludes me more and more with each setting of the sun.
I am not so sure that I believe it even exists any longer.
Perhaps love eludes me because I chase a fictional object.
Perhaps I am living analogous to the ***** addict.
One pursues the dragon; the other pursues romance.
I seek a woman who I connect with on such a level that I am unable to articulate the degree to which I love her.
Yet, she knows in her heart of hearts where I stand and she stands there with me.
Society dictates that our masculinity is dependent on abstaining from thoughts and words that might be construed to lack a rugged demeanor.
Yet I say to you, every man thinks of what I write of today.
The vast majority of them are too restrained by society’s trivial notion of a man to even engage their own minds in the thought of the subject.
They act as if the rest of the world can hear their thoughts and relay what they have heard to others.
The world is a jury, a harsher judge than the most heartless, spectators in a gladiatorial match, watching one's every move, criticizing one's every flinch.
Yet, they can only maintain a level of hypocrisy for so long before the bounds of their walls cave upon them.
There are those who would state that they are content with the presence of a physical relationship and the absence of an emotional connection.
They are but fools.
They are pursuers of immediate gratification and will be recipients of nothing more.
Their lives will be shadowed by the emptiness that they caused unto so many others and their equation in life will not result in equity.
The love I speak of friend is an emotion that is triggered merely by the most subtle of references to the beloved.
It is a flooding of the capillaries, a fluttering of the heart, a sweating of the brow, an inward heave of the stomach, and the settling of an utter bliss.
These are the physical symptoms of the emotion and the emotion is a cranial symptom of the connection. Love, my friend, I do believe is a balance of two individuals that is caused by a pairing that can only be so perfectly designed by one who is omnipotent.
So far I must admit to you that I have not felt paired with an individual.
There were physical connections with many, and emotional connections with few.
Yet, even in the most intense emotional connection there was something lacking.
There was a piece of the puzzle missing.
When her and my eyes met, there was not a parallel connection.
True love, my friend, is but a connection that shall be made but once. I have not made that connection yet and perhaps it would be inappropriate for me to theorize further.
Yet, it is those who dared to theorize that have revolutionized this planet ten fold because their thoughts became an idea.
The idea became a design.
The design grew to be tangible.
The tangible became a reality.
Therefore, my friend, I theorize that I will one day find this obscure love that so many on this Earth do not have in their possession.
And when I find this obscure connection, my friend, I shall speak of it more.
I shall articulate it to the best of my ability so that others may know better what they pursue and may find it in due time.
I wrote this piece a few years ago. Since then, I have found my true love. This somewhat recent discovery now necessitates a second part to the poem which is yet unwritten.