Why am I not able to cry anymore?
Doesn’t even help if I slam myself down to the floor...

How will they be loosed those million other tears I have trapped inside?
The ones that have said no more, this is enough! We for now must just run and hide...

Please tell me when this excruciating chapter will end, and the new beginning will come?
And where did all these pounding boulders of emotionless pain arrive from?

Will my sentiments forever continue dry as dust?
Will my heart one day crumble as thousand year old rust?

These are the things I think about daily.
And genuine smiles are something that come only very rarely...

No more tears, how I do wish I had at least one.
But no matter how hard I try, I still have none...


J.I.F.

Every righteous choice has been availed.
Every opportunity for life everlasting, has without a doubt been unveiled.

No more hiding behind this worlds willing blindness.
The time is just about here for him to retract his long lasting patience, and unmeasurable kindness.

Time soon to put wickedness in its everlasting forgotten place.
The time is imminent, minutes only left, for a total about-face.

It’s certainly no time for any of his words to misconstrue.
So listen wisely, before all allotted time is totally through…

So is time up, and is it too late?
All I can say is, every second left, time closes ever more, that still open however very narrow gate…


J.I.F.
8/31/22


1 Corinthians 7:29a
29 Moreover, this I say, brothers, the time left is reduced.

Each morning when I rise, another fresh new day is born right in front of my eyes.

Yesterday’s worries admittedly for a bit did take me away.
Today, those large obstacles causing anguish are insignificant, as dust from a smashed potters clay.

Yes sometimes our worries may momentarily cause us to drift.
But then a new day starts, and once again he gives us that unmerited gentle lift.
Yes, we all do well to always remember, each day from him, is another undeserved gift.


J.I.F.

Romans 3:23,24
For all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God,  24 and it is as a free gift that they are being declared righteous by his undeserved kindness through the release by the ransom paid by Christ Jesus.

James 6:23
For the wages sin pays is death, but the gift God gives is everlasting life by Christ Jesus our Lord.

Lamentations 3:22,24
It is because of Jehovah’s loyal love that we have not come to our finish, For his mercies never end.  23 They are new each morning; your faithfulness is abundant.

Love, you lift my heart to a place that is in a completely different atmosphere.
It’s as a royal realm, like being up in our lofty stratosphere.

Your pleasantness fills my surrounding space.
I am at home wherever I may be, your refuge is within me, and I am not able to feel even slightly misplaced.

A cheerful happiness overshadows me, and I instantly transport to a state of jubilance!
My inner being soars toward unmitigated exuberance!

Love, your way is increasingly kind.
When you are with me, to all hurtful things, I am as deaf, dumb and blind.

You are love, and this is your indisputable way.
I trust you with my whole heart, because you come from the purest source, the one that is heaven high elevated, and would no one, ever betray…


J.I.F.

James 1:13
13 When under trial, let no one say: “I am being tried by God.” For with evil things God cannot be tried, nor does he himself try anyone.

Proverbs 3:5
5 Trust in Jehovah with all your heart, And do not rely on your own understanding.

1 John 4:8
8 Whoever does not love has not come to know God, because God is love.  

Hebrews 6:18
18 in order that through two unchangeable things in which it is impossible for God to lie, we who have fled to the refuge may have strong encouragement to take firm hold of the hope set before us.

John 13:34,35
34 I am giving you a new commandment, that you love one another; just as I have loved you, you also love one another.  35 By this all will know that you are my disciples—if you have love among yourselves.


{Jehovah’s love is forever! But unrighteous hatefulness, will one day end.}

Must hide my true intentions, these I must at all cost conceal to stay covert.
Perhaps I'll play the roll of the shy introvert?

I'll tell you that everyone is so mean to me, and that I'm constantly in pain.
I'll play up I'm a victim for your sympathy to gain.
Then behind your back I'll run you over like a 100 mile per hour freight train!

My true colors I must keep hidden.
Otherwise everyone will know who I am deep within, their darkest ever, evil villain.

No one more important than I!
All the rest disgusting maggots!
Their unimportant emotions deserving of being pummeled by a thousand heavy mallets!

Haha! You stupid thing, you don’t know what I plan to do?
My goal, to make you feel severe pain that you never expected, that you never knew!

I am very convincing as having sentiment.
But eventually will squash your happiness, like a six ton angry elephant!

I will manipulate the game so as to get my sadistic fill for just a bit more.
Then level you, by letting loose my twisted mental imagination, opening wide my insanity’s door.

It’s a fact, sociopaths are capable of only imitation empathy.
The only defense from one is total avoidance, please remember this warning, it’s for your own peaceful sanity...



J.I.F.

To the human mind that is intimately unfamiliar with the concept of forever.
Striving for this elusive concept is a baffling endeavor.

Are things not naturally understood, nonexistent?
Things that our minds cannot perhaps reach, that are just too far distant?

The range of certain facts  that are at present conceivable by only its designer.
May to us be complicated, but to him only a matter that is very minor.

Subjects not comprehended, perhaps taking an infinite time frame to understand?
However having a complete grasp of every detail at present, is not something he currently decrees by strict command.

Instead of being preoccupied with an insatiable goal to discover what the future will hold for endless days…?
No doubt our limited time and wisdom is best utilized in his confidence, so that he may receive our deepest worthy praise.



J.I.F.



Jeremiah 17:7

7 Blessed is the man who puts his trust in Jehovah, Whose confidence is in Jehovah. 8 He will become like a tree planted by the waters, That sends out its roots to the stream. He will not notice when heat comes, But his leaves will always flourish. And in the year of drought he will not be anxious, Nor will he quit producing fruit.

1 John 2:17
17 Furthermore, the world is passing away and so is its desire, but the one who does the will of God remains forever.

Psalms 37:29

29 The righteous will possess the earth, And they will live forever on it.

Darkness falls and life goes black,
Fear sets in like an imminent heart attack!

All around things seem so pandemic,
Fears spread like an out of control epidemic...

Supply’s are running out and scarce are the necessities,
No time to think of any comforting amenities...

Just then light breaks through from the heavens above,
Peace descends as a innocent dove...

Yes his hope comes our direction by way of accurate information,
Helping us move with the proper inclination...

Yes in the end all fears lose to the love of his goodness,
His kingdom then enters in with its complete fullness...


J.I.F.

Luke 21:26

People will become faint out of fear and expectation of the things coming upon the inhabited earth, for the powers of the heavens will be shaken.

Romans 8:31

What, then, are we to say about these things? If God is for us, who will be against us?

All tears I’ve reluctantly saved.
My account of life reflects a balance, that clearly indicates I’m still deep pains slave.

To each his own plight, this is the reality we each must face.
Still collectively we endeavor to strategize collectively, although individual members of this broken human race.

The more we try to manipulate the incoherence of our battered time.
The more we realize, in the span of our whisper of life, there is mostly no rhythm, nor rhyme.

Life’s leprous dividends of anguish who truly understands, and will subtract them absolutely in our end?
Not a one of us, only he, this we all oh so deeply fully comprehend.

Everyday we add ever-more drops of agony to the debt of our personal pity bank.
In his mercy we have faith, a permanently blotting out, to a complete blank!


J.I.F.


Matthew 18:37

37 Moved with pity at this, the master of that slave let him off and canceled his debt.

Psalm 51:1

Show me favor, O God, according to your loyal love. Blot out my transgressions according to your great mercy.

Psalm 72:13

13 He will have pity on the lowly and the poor, And the lives of the poor he will save.  

Psalm 90:9

9 Our days ebb away because of your fury; And our years come to an end like a whisper.

Mark 1:40,41

40 There also came to him a *****, pleading with him even on bended knee, saying to him: “If you just want to, you can make me clean.”  41 At that he was moved with pity, and he stretched out his hand and touched him, and said to him: “I want to! Be made clean.”

Psalm 56:8
8 You keep track of my wandering. Do collect my tears in your skin bottle. Are they not recorded in your book?