I thought that I would be able to talk
I would just sit in silence wondering
wondering how I can talk to you
how I would be able to tell you
how beautiful you are
how amazing I think you are
and how much I think about you
since the day we met
I could not forget how I would pass by
just to see your gorgeous face
to just stare at you for no reason what so ever
I had to get to know you
I had to push myself into your life
I like you
and I have no control over it
I had many chances to take you
and show you how i feel
but I was a scared
I would look at the past and think
I'm no way good for you
you can do so much better then me
I'm nothing
you probably aren't even thinking of me
and so the doubt builds and builds
and I close off
till the thought of you frightens me
and even now as I realize
that not only do I like you
but I think that I'm in love.

Looking at me
Always putting me down
Not know what I am
Always laughing with you
Not knowing of your lust

Blinded by the secrets you trust
You are what you hate
And there you are hating me!
Your enemy is you
And you keep fighting
Not fighting your life
Just your subconscious soul

Laughing at me
The reason unknown
But the message is there
You like what you see
But so afraid to act

The way you are amazed
Is the way you are a strange
Afraid of the truth but the fact so clear
The truth?
This person is you
And you love nothing more

The tear between friends and foes
Breaks the code
When in reality
The code was never complete to begin with
The same are strong
But opposites unite even better
Feeding off the unknown
And sharing their love

I am a Freak
And you are perfect
We're not meant to be
Those eyes so pure
Nothing stopping your sight
Blinded by none
And always making fun

Gentle is the code
And Harmony Fixed that
These eyes were always mine
I just found them too late

I am a Freak
And you are perfect
we're not meant to be
But whose eyes are we meant to be in?

Oh you think I care
What about now?

Nothing will change, I am what i am
Battling my self now battling you
Why are you trying to figure it out
Move On!
Because all your doing is fighting
And all I’m doing is walking

Stop this right now!
Stop putting me (down)
in these random categories that you’ve made for me
Let me see, let me choose, let me be myself
Because I don’t belong and I never will

Apologize?

These feelings are mine
And that’s what I choose
I am what I am and that’s the fact
So if that’s Monster you see
So believe it!
Because all I see is a Hero in me

Back off and look through
You see it? No! Oh well.

You will never understand but that’s ok
Just let me live and stop trying to bring me back
Because all I can say to you is
Words and Forgiveness won’t fix a thing
And do they truly reach that deep?

You live for this idea you have of me
But you forget truly see me
So Forget me and Forget the world
Because nothing truly matters
When you’re looking through those eyes of yours

I have fallen in to far
i am not only living in this reality
but in my fantasy

i have crossed into both worlds
and now i am able to see
the problem isn't with me

i can choose where i want to live
but now the problem is where to i go
move on with this one
or move into the other one

if i choose one i will loose the other
and if i choose both i will loose myself

i not only ponder on what will happen
but am steadily moving into one
i know where this path will lead me
i know i will be safe

for the time being you will
not find me in this world
for i will be living in mine.

In the dark shadows of the night
I sleep with the crowd
Tuckered away in my nice cozy bed
Asleep i be not
For nothing frightens me more then these dreams of memories

I laugh I play
"This is fun" I hear them say
I cry I weep
"Lets go home" I hear them say

Where may that be I ponder
Walking around with shadows that dwell
The silent noise of a distant fan
Turns to a speed boat; so fast, so fun
Ends up to be a death trap so fast, lets run

What is this place
Where have I step
What must be done
Who are all that follow
How do I get out

The doors appear before me
As though my words have awoke them from their deep slumbers
Broken, splintered, nearly falling apart
All these door were ****
Except that one dressed in red wear

A red so bright
A red so dark
Never understood, until just a few moments ago
This is the door it has to be

And where it leads no one dares proceed

Its a dream my dear, I hear
Whose dream is it, they scream with fear
You must escape or be replaced, they whisper with haste
And we are nothing more then a vivid door, they claim

Follow the path marked green
This will show you the way
Marked with death you may not follow
Marked with pain you may not know
Marked with love you may not have
Marked with hate you will not feel
Marked with innocence you may not take

So go ahead take one
Be marked forever
Or just drift away
Either or you will not believe where you are

What is this hellish theme
A play, a sense  
Well its make believe, a simple dream.