I am just going to sit here
       in the quiet
              because I like it.
I do not mind
       alone sometimes,
              so long as it's alone
                     on my terms.
I do not want to be known
       and special
              to the world entire,
                     just to a few
                            who love me well.
So I will sit here
       in the quiet
              and watch the world
                     pass me thoughtless by
                            in search of glory
                                    because I like it.

How unfair it is
That I cannot do

HAIR MAGIC-

That my wispy locks
Won't listen to me,
Not even with the persuasion
Of a gallon of hairspray
And a million pins.

How unfair that I
Cannot look this good
Every day...

But there is some
Small comfort in my

CHOCOLATE CHIP COOKIES-

(The ones that everyone raves over)
I shall be messy haired,
But happy.

Phantom kisses from
Imaginary lips
Ghostly fingers
Running across my hips
Chilled play-pretend
Tickles across my skin
The throbbing of my heart
Killing me from within
Warm and solid
Yet all in my head
Feeling alive
In a world of the dead

Staring at a screen
--Hiding in the library--
My brain... will not... move.

-1-
Hello?
             Hello?

I can't hear you anymore. Do you hear me?
I want to talk to you.
          …  see you.
          …  feel you.
          …  simply know that you're here,
that you're not slipping away from me.

That, right there, that is my biggest fear;
I fear your absence.
I don't want to be alone
in this crowded world.

-2-
Hello,
            goodbye.

I don't hear anything from you anymore.
I don't know if I want to now.
It's been so long, it feels like longer
since you and I last met.
                              …  talked.
                              …  anything at all.

It hurt, at first,
                         but now it's gone all


                                                  numb.
My heart, that is.

-3-
Hello.
            Yeah,
I guess it's been awhile.
I wish I was closer.
                …  stronger.
                …  more in tune with you.
But I don't know how.
And I'm scared to.
And I'm going oh so very fast and can't seem to make myself-
stop.

Help.
Please.