i live in this place they call home
how? i don't know
i wonder sometimes
where I'm at in this world
where i belong

but its not here not with them
i want to be in heaven
but I'm stuck in hell

with all theis demonds
and the devil himself
i can't get out but i want to
help me find where i belong

i wish my bed weren't always empty
i miss you being by my side holding me
i miss you arms around me

it gets so cold and lonely
your hundred of miles away
feeling the same way

i just wish you were here
to comfort me with your kiss
your eyes so blue

i get so lost
just hug me
and never let me go

i am the girl who is afraid to show how she truly feels. the girl who doesn't want to be treated different just because she is different. the one who wants to make her own decisions. the girl who doesnt want her life to be controlled by people that don't even care, she doesn't want people telling her what she can or can't do. she doesn't like how people changed her into something she hates to look at. she doesn't want people to notice her for what she's not. I'm the girl who is right even when she's wrong. the girl who is never invited to anything, and the girl who no one showed up to hers. the girl who cries herself to sleep at night, because no one likes her and everyone hates her. the girl who doesn't want to be treated like a girl but wants to be loved like one. the girl who loves the heck out of animals (snakes included), the girl that loves to sing and dance even though she knows that she's no good. the girl that her life is In poem writing and songs. the girl who loves her family, friends even her enemies. she may not love herself, but she loves everyone else(exspeacily everyone who is supporting me on hello poetry.) and doesn't want to be changed again, she wants to go back to the way she was:
crazy
        talented
                     funny
                              exiting
                                        fun
                                              childish
                                                           freindly                                                                            
                                                                       kind
                                                                               happy
                                                                                         joyful
                                                                                                  loving
                                                                                                            dorky
                                                                                                                    imagative
                                                                                                                                    a kid
I JUST WANT TO BE ME AGAIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

you know what goes through my head
when you break my heart
you just wanted me in bed
i keep asking when did this start

i tried not to cry
with you its lie after lie
thats just you
I'm sorry but I'm done

i have to go
getting your heart broke is no fun
but you wouldn't know
you just don't care

you say you do
but if you did
you would have been there

you didn't think i knew
that you were using me
so what you'll see
how i felt
when you get cut

heart breaks come easy
but heart breaks will heel
its hard to find a fairytale
when fairytales aren't real

you said you'd be there
did you mean it
why can't i see
lifes not a fairytale
you're no prince charming

so i got to get over you
i can't stand to look at you
i can't stand to look in your eyes
i know all I'm gonna hear is lies

i need to get over you
i want to get over you
its hard to get over you
but ill get over you
and now I'm over you

first time i saw you boy
my heart sang with joy
and when i saw your eyes
i started to realize

that I'm not alone
i have your hand to hold
and now i do see
that you do love me

we will be together
always and forever
and i won't be afraid
I'm proud of what you made

first time you hugged me
it kinda scared me
and when you held my hand
that made me understand

that I'm not alone
i have your hand to hold
and now i do see
that you do love me

first time you kissed me \
that made me see
that i do love you
and you do love me

so why can't they leave us be
why can't we make them see

that were not alone

i try so hard...
to show you that i love you.
and i try so hard..
to show you that i care.
And i try so hard
but you'll never know what to do
and i cry so hard
wishing you were there.
how long do i have to try
til you realize that i need you
and how long do you have to cry
until you know what to do
but i fall so hard
for you every time
and i  crawl so far
when I'm on the ground
i need your help
to get me back on my feet
so give me your hand
it could be so sweet