Why do I miss you so much?
Its as if now I truly feel
How I should have felt months ago
Waking up, this is finally real

I liked many before you
But the feelings came and passed
What I feel for you is something special
The love and lust, embedded in my heart

I tried to show you how I feel
But naively you had no clue
What I was trying to tell you was
I'm willing to do anything just for you

Eventually I gave up
You never got the hint
I settled for us just being friends
Better than nothing

But soon that friendship crumbled and died
Along with my hopes of us
I thought I'd move on, move away
Never think again of your lust

A few days ago I finally saw
That without you I have no rest
You are amazing, the best there is
I won't settle for anything less

I will attempt to rekindle our spark
Our flame together burnt so bright
I want you again, but this time I know
That one day you'll become my wife

My heart comes alight
Every time I close my eyes
You live on my eyelids' inside
I think about you every night

Even when times get tough
And I want to run away
I close my eyes for a second or two
You're enough to convince me to stay

Today I found a picture of you
It made me want to cry
Knowing that I cant hold you now
To find you, I'd travel far and wide

I reminisce about our time
Heart slowly breaking in two
So many wasted opportunities
Too bad, nothing I can do

As time ticks away slowly
On this sly-looking clock
I tell myself reassuringly
This is only a pit stop

For one day I truly know
That it will be worth the time
That last barrier I will breach
And together we'll elope, escaping for a while

No one looks
No one cares
At the poems I write each day
All I ask
Is for a word
Your thoughts on what I say

I slave away
Pen in hand
Trying to express
The way I feel
About some things
Not trying to impress

I write and write
I try my best
To put out a masterpiece
But time after time
Rhyme after rhyme
The dream is not yet complete

To look at some
Who get everything
People drooling over their roughs
The comments pile up
But my poems remain
Empty and untouched

Although I write
For no one else
It still would be very nice
For people to
Appreciate
The emotion in what I write

The worst part is
I'll never know
If I was ever any good
Because people could
Never take the time
To give my work a look

No one looks
No one cares
At the poems I write each day
All I ask
Is for a word
Your thoughts on what I say

The fire inside my heart, burned
You took away my pain
A gentle punch, tender touch
Kissed me in the rain
I waited for you, my reason to live
Took me to a faraway land
Where love is true, the sky is blue
Where my heart was held by your hand
The adventures we shared, so long ago
I relived everyday
As we ran around, jumping about
That is where I wanted to stay
The play-fights that we would have
Rolling around in the park
Playful glares, longing stares
Pierced into my heart
From that day on, I knew we were wrong
About our relationship before
Your coy grin, eyes' glint
I knew we had something more
You denied the way you felt about me
For many years after that
You'd look away, not wanting to say
That onto me you were latched
Not sure how you kept up that game
For such a long period of time
Your heart would burn, mind would curse
That you couldn't yet be mine
After many years of amazing friendship
The question again popped up
You finally came out,  without a doubt
For me to love you back was just pure luck
Writing this poem, 4 years down the line
About to get married, bells chime
Behind this sheet, the girl of my dreams
I smile to myself. It's time

Thank you for the best 2 weeks of my life
A time I will never forget
We met there, became best friends
From then on we we were set

Things I miss on those long bus rides
For hours we could talk
One earphone each, jamming a tune
Or sleep after a long days walk

The same type of person, in seperate halves
Was definitely what we were
The jokes, the laughing, the singing, the fun
To be back there,  my heart yearns

We speak on the phone for hours on end
I look forward to our weekly call
The way we talk to eachother there
It's as if nothing's changed at all

Just a little longer till we reunite
"We'll meet again soon" we say
I can't wait until that moment comes
Because I miss you every day

The cleansing felt from poetry
Allows my heart to open
Pouring out that which I dread to say
My words are carefully chosen

The words that you read on this thought-filled sheet
Tour the darkest parts of my head
Know that the truth can always be found
Coaxed by paper and a pen

Writers block is not known to me
As poetry engulfs my mind
The choice is what parts I should put in
And what should be left behind

From love to nature, humour and fame
Boy, ive written it all
Because everyone knows a poetic mind
Can never be put under control

The lightning bolt,  the thunder clap
Voila! My greatest yet
No more than a few stanzas ago
The words howled inside my head

Whether on a sheet of paper
Or even on PC
My world is slowly being uncovered
For the entire world to see

Some may judge, some may laugh
But they will never know
The emotion put into each and every piece
Burns inside me, a red inferno

All I really want to do
Is spread my message far and wide
Let poetry in and begin to write
Explore the complexity of your mind

The way I saw you every day
Only grew with admiration
Eyes filled with giant hearts
You are my strongest temptation

The way I caught your trailing scent
The second you walked by
Left me following aimlessly
Cartoon-like, nose held high

The way I caught your glance at lunch
Made the butterflies soar and glide
I looked away quickly,  cheeks all red
I'd never felt that shy

Over time my feelings built up
As about you I thought long and hard
Building up the courage finally
To attempt to steal your heart

At 3am that final night
I wrote a letter, pouring myself out
The destination would be your bag
Some reading material on your flight

For two whole days I awaited
What was to be a bitter-sweet sound
Yes you feel the same way about me
But your mother would never allow

We stayed in touch,  speaking everyday
Until one day it all just stopped
Not knowing why you no longer replied
To my messages, my heart felt lost

Today will be almost 3 months
Since I sent that last message to you
Why am I deserving of this?
What exactly did I do?

Even with the damage done
I am confident for our future ahead
Only two more years till I finish school
And our relationship can be made amends

Until then I remain positive
For that day when we'll reunite
Two halves seperated, together again
At the end of the tunnel, I hope there is light

The dungeons of hell
They beckon once again
Demons inside fighting
Howling out of rage
Terror and fear
Lie beyond the gates
No sane human
Can survive this terrible fate
Red, burning, searing flames
Waiting to engulf
Any unfortunate living thing
Inside its gaping mouth
Only the fittest, strongest ones
Will survive little more than a day
As the rest scream until the ****** end
The palpable feeling of pain
The searing heat rushes through
Ready to cleanse the soul
Of any impurities it may have picked up
In a world with no light at all
Helpless screams offer no help
In a place where the devil laughs
Hell is where no human will find
Salvation on the cross

You consume my every thought
Every minute of every day
How can I find words
To express what I want to say

At night my head hits the pillow
Along with a hopeful dream
Someday we'll be together
However distant it may seem

In the morning the chirping birds
Remind me of your voice
Calm, serenity, peacefulness
Were always your first choice

At lunch time the ice cream truck
Plays its gentle tune
Vanilla and strawberry sorbet swirl
I'll never share with anyone, except you

As the sun begins to set
The stars begin to shine
The moonlight picnics we had in the park
Forever playing on my mind

Even in the dead of night
With the horrors it may bring
You are still on my mind
With a late night text, my cellphone rings

All I ever really wanted
Was you and only you
Hopefully with this poem
You'll see I love you through and through

Raise me up
Drop me dead
These are the games
You play with my head
Make me high
Shoot me down
My head it spins
Round and round
One second a king
Next in the slums
My hearts beating
A pounding drum
Adrenaline rushes
My chest's rise
Now im in power
Nowhere to hide
Vengeance is sweet
Blood is thick
Pinned to the table
Tease with a lick
Now you scream
Now you moan
Revenge is a dish
Best served cold

I dreamt a vivid dream last night
One I never want to have again
I saw you in the arms of another
The arms of my best friend

I watch you two from a distance
As my heart slowly begins to tear
She laughs at your jokes, kisses your cheek
Laughing in the mid-summer air

As I demand answers
From the two people I cared for the most
I am lost in my own emotions
My world is dark, there is no hope

I always knew she never loved me
Then why does this come as such a shock?
I guess my heart always tried to hold on
To the thought of me maybe having a shot

Then you both turn to look at me
Your gazes I feel are sharp
I sense the guilt, anger and no remorse
For the damage done to my heart

As you begin to run at me
Fury burning in your eyes
I am awoken by the sound of chirping birds
Whew! That was one long night

Is there something wrong with me?
Cant seem to get you off my mind
Even though you on the other side of the world
I think about you all the time

The way you used to laugh at my jokes
As we shared a drink in the sun
The way you used to be so shy
While we rolled around having fun

The way you used to be so modest
Even though everyone knew you were a babe
The way you looked me in the eye
Made all my troubles float away

I wonder if you think of me
Half as much as I think of you
I doubt it though, because if so
You'd have a lot of thinking to do

The pain comes out as I write this poem
As the sun begins to deplete
Another night comes along haunted with dreams
Of us together again, finally complete

The bubbles in a coke bottle
Oh how much they symbolise
Our torn, broken relationship
It makes me want to cry

Just as those same bubbles
Float to the top and quickly burst
So too you were with our relationship
Your true side finally emerged

Just as those bubbles
cling to the sides, so transparent
So too did you cling to my money
Your real intentions always apparent

Just as those bubbles
Can cause the bottle to explode
So too you affected my heart
As the gaping wounds you left, they moan

Just as those bubbles
Cause the liquid to fizzle and crack
So too you hear my skin tearing
As you leve the word "heartbroken"
Etched into my back

Just as those bubbles
Once popped can never return
So too now that you're gone
My heart's lesson can finally be learnt

Breathe in, breathe out
Feel the sounds that surround
Nature, it's beautiful
Makes me feel safe and sound

As I chirp along with the birds
Perched atop the highest peak
No need for words
In a place where the atmosphere speaks

The gentle trickle of the brook
The strong crashing of the fall
The mighty roaring of the lion
The shrieking of the eagle as it soars

As the sun begins to set
The vast jungle comes alive
As the snakes slither, spiders crawl
The bees retreat into their hive

The bats once perched
Begin to fly about
Hunters become hunted
Inside a greater power's mouth

All these amazing creatures
They work together as one
To form one of the most tranquil, yet exciting
Places under the sun

You're funny
Smart
Understanding
Kind
You just seem to read all the thoughts in my mind
Witty
Naughty
Sensitive
Sweet
I'm so glad I had the privilege of you to meet
Quick-thinking
Motivated
Outgoing
Strong
I could sit with you laughing, joking all day long
Thoughtful
Embarrassing
Rowdy
Gentle
Those silly songs you sing drive me absolutely mental
Cunning
Courageous
Inventive
Shrew
I'm so thankful God gave me a best friend like you

My broken heart
Its in parts
Lying on the wooden floor
But you dont care
You just stare
Your pale eyes toward the door
As I plead
You just reach
Toward your purse on that long table
You just breathe
Through your teeth
Thinking im mentally unstable
But my eyes
They cry
For this pain I feel is very real
Stuck in a vice
Made of ice
You have sentenced me with your deadly seal
Yet I get up
Out of the muck
I defy you with a look of disgust
I feel ashamed
Of the day
When you were my body's lust

They say its the little things
That make the difference
I know this all too well
As I take into account
All the things that you do
The little things make my heart swell

The way you use your sweater
As a blanket
What a way to keep yourself warm
I can't help but giggle to myself
As deeper in love with you I fall

As we sit around
The breakfast table
Everybody making a noise
You sit quietly
Engrossed in your thoughts
Smiling softly, acting coy

The way you are subdued
Not looking for attention
Just shows how down to earth you are
I can speak to you about anything
Without you judging
Or making me feel daft

The way you have to stir
Your tea clockwise round
To achieve the perfect taste
I laugh to myself
As I fall deeper in love
With a huge grin across my face

That day we had to part
Was the worst day of my life
I felt sick to my stomach
All those little things I took for granted
I would not see
For a long time coming

If I could spend every moment
Just staring at your picture
I would feel at peace
Even though I cant have the real you
Right here with me

The time difference and distance
Make not a difference to me
But to you they could mean
The difference between a boyfriend
Or an acquaintance

I dont want to have to replay memories
From when we spent time together
I want to create new ones
Of us laughing and smiling in the sun

Maybe I should say something?
But I dont want to risk
What we have
We have something special
You nor I can deny that

I feel trapped in a cycle
I cannot escape
You are my ultimate goal
How can I break free?

I don't know if what I'm writing
Makes any sense at all
But I guess thats the effects
Of a numbed, broken heart

They say family lasts forever
This saying holds very true
Mom, Dad and the rest of the crazy bunch
This one is for you

As I'm walking through the front door
I see mom, spatula in her hand
"If I ever catch you in my kitchen again,
Ill make you wash the pots and pans!"

Little Johnny grins widely at me
Mischievously running around the room
Its amazing what damage a 4 year old can do
With some ketchup and a spoon

Next comes dad bustling in
"what is this commotion all about?"
I cover my eyes, fearing the worst
As a perfect "o" is made by his mouth

Instead of the torrent of cursing
Comes a deep and jovial sound
Dad begins to clap and laugh
As little Johnny still runs around

Jenna comes sprinting into the room
****** mask and hair all curled up
I swear she could have scared the dead
With that "organic" ****** muck

As our crazy clan gather in the lounge
Just waiting for the setting sun
We all begin to laugh out loud
Thursday games night has finally begun

Haven't spoken in so long
Nearly a month to be precise
My world is now filled with darkness
You were my only source of light

I am missing you so much these days
Cant say you feel the same
Unfortunately time hasn't healed the scars
For which you are to blame

I ask myself time and time again
"Why keep running back to her?"
The answer is found deep inside my heart
Where a silent battle stirs

"Move on, shes not worth it" I say to myself
"Agreed" says my angry side
"Keep fighting" whispers my second half
This side, completely love-blind

Which of these opposing teams
Will eventually emerge victorious?
I could come out of this with tears in my eyes
Or with a smile, wouldn't that be glorious?

For the time being I will have to wait
As clueless about this as the next
But whichever decision my heart will choose
I know it will be for the best

My heart is burning brightly
Two colours on opposite sides
Blue for the coldness I feel in my heart
Red, my love for life

I feel theres something wrong with me
Don't come too close to either one
You might freeze from the cold and shock
Or sweat as if standing on the sun

Truth is I wasnt born this way
You turned me into this
Gave me an appreciation for the finer things
While also wanting to slit my wrists

To you I am eternally thankful
In some sadistic,  twisted way
For you raised me to a higher level-
As you revel in the pits of hell
Where you will forever stay

Do I have to get out of bed? please, not today of all days its raining, hard I'll get drenched as im walking on my way

The only light rappelling me forward is the thought of seeing you your warmth and love keep me going keeping out the winter blues

Through thunder clouds and hailstorms I tread along through the mud oh the things you'll do when you're in love they're endless kinda like a fool on a drug

As I come close to the red-bricked building my heart is filled with delight as you stand there alone waiting for me you banish the chills felt from the night

Although the sun isnt shining my heart is lit by rays of gold to see you happy with a smile on your face makes this story worth being told

So as I trudge on through the mud through thunderstorms and rain I feel surprisingly comfortable for you I'd do it all again

Your latin blood rushes as you feel the heat rise just me and you together my heart melts as I stare into your eyes

I run my hand through those shining locks glinting in the tropical sun all I want is to live in this moment with us forever as one

I softly caress those smooth cheeks run my fingers over your eyes i've never felt this way before so happy im ready to die

As I hear the car from a distance I know our time's come to a close I panic not knowing what to do and I kiss those lips, red as a rose

Adrenalin rushes through me for you I can say the same as we lose ourselves in eachothers arms the beast we call love has finally been tamed

You said we'd stay in touch one of the many lies you told that last day spent together, you dont realize I will cherish till the days I grow old

Your most striking feature had to be your smile to see it again in person I would walk one thousand miles

My love for you I feel will never fully go away but I must learn to cope to smile, say that everything's ok

The worst part of all is you will never understand what I would have done for you had I only got the chance