You're funny
Smart
Understanding
Kind
You just seem to read all the thoughts in my mind
Witty
Naughty
Sensitive
Sweet
I'm so glad I had the privilege of you to meet
Quick-thinking
Motivated
Outgoing
Strong
I could sit with you laughing, joking all day long
Thoughtful
Embarrassing
Rowdy
Gentle
Those silly songs you sing drive me absolutely mental
Cunning
Courageous
Inventive
Shrew
I'm so thankful God gave me a best friend like you

My broken heart
Its in parts
Lying on the wooden floor
But you dont care
You just stare
Your pale eyes toward the door
As I plead
You just reach
Toward your purse on that long table
You just breathe
Through your teeth
Thinking im mentally unstable
But my eyes
They cry
For this pain I feel is very real
Stuck in a vice
Made of ice
You have sentenced me with your deadly seal
Yet I get up
Out of the muck
I defy you with a look of disgust
I feel ashamed
Of the day
When you were my body's lust

They say its the little things
That make the difference
I know this all too well
As I take into account
All the things that you do
The little things make my heart swell

The way you use your sweater
As a blanket
What a way to keep yourself warm
I can't help but giggle to myself
As deeper in love with you I fall

As we sit around
The breakfast table
Everybody making a noise
You sit quietly
Engrossed in your thoughts
Smiling softly, acting coy

The way you are subdued
Not looking for attention
Just shows how down to earth you are
I can speak to you about anything
Without you judging
Or making me feel daft

The way you have to stir
Your tea clockwise round
To achieve the perfect taste
I laugh to myself
As I fall deeper in love
With a huge grin across my face

That day we had to part
Was the worst day of my life
I felt sick to my stomach
All those little things I took for granted
I would not see
For a long time coming

If I could spend every moment
Just staring at your picture
I would feel at peace
Even though I cant have the real you
Right here with me

The time difference and distance
Make not a difference to me
But to you they could mean
The difference between a boyfriend
Or an acquaintance

I dont want to have to replay memories
From when we spent time together
I want to create new ones
Of us laughing and smiling in the sun

Maybe I should say something?
But I dont want to risk
What we have
We have something special
You nor I can deny that

I feel trapped in a cycle
I cannot escape
You are my ultimate goal
How can I break free?

I don't know if what I'm writing
Makes any sense at all
But I guess thats the effects
Of a numbed, broken heart

They say family lasts forever
This saying holds very true
Mom, Dad and the rest of the crazy bunch
This one is for you

As I'm walking through the front door
I see mom, spatula in her hand
"If I ever catch you in my kitchen again,
Ill make you wash the pots and pans!"

Little Johnny grins widely at me
Mischievously running around the room
Its amazing what damage a 4 year old can do
With some ketchup and a spoon

Next comes dad bustling in
"what is this commotion all about?"
I cover my eyes, fearing the worst
As a perfect "o" is made by his mouth

Instead of the torrent of cursing
Comes a deep and jovial sound
Dad begins to clap and laugh
As little Johnny still runs around

Jenna comes sprinting into the room
****** mask and hair all curled up
I swear she could have scared the dead
With that "organic" ****** muck

As our crazy clan gather in the lounge
Just waiting for the setting sun
We all begin to laugh out loud
Thursday games night has finally begun

Haven't spoken in so long
Nearly a month to be precise
My world is now filled with darkness
You were my only source of light

I am missing you so much these days
Cant say you feel the same
Unfortunately time hasn't healed the scars
For which you are to blame

I ask myself time and time again
"Why keep running back to her?"
The answer is found deep inside my heart
Where a silent battle stirs

"Move on, shes not worth it" I say to myself
"Agreed" says my angry side
"Keep fighting" whispers my second half
This side, completely love-blind

Which of these opposing teams
Will eventually emerge victorious?
I could come out of this with tears in my eyes
Or with a smile, wouldn't that be glorious?

For the time being I will have to wait
As clueless about this as the next
But whichever decision my heart will choose
I know it will be for the best

My heart is burning brightly
Two colours on opposite sides
Blue for the coldness I feel in my heart
Red, my love for life

I feel theres something wrong with me
Don't come too close to either one
You might freeze from the cold and shock
Or sweat as if standing on the sun

Truth is I wasnt born this way
You turned me into this
Gave me an appreciation for the finer things
While also wanting to slit my wrists

To you I am eternally thankful
In some sadistic,  twisted way
For you raised me to a higher level-
As you revel in the pits of hell
Where you will forever stay