I've lived a suicidal lifestyle, never worried about the consequence. I've been in this mental for a while, just teetering on the fence. On a positive note, I've already fallen off, so we may not be in the same boat and for that you may scoff. I'll shoot you a lil info, I don't give a ****, a fair one, ***** you dunno what you in for, gonna end up with your jaw wired shut. You don't wanna wit me, I don't wanna waste my time, you will flee, I'll catch another felony, at the expense of not two cents but a ****** dime.

Yes ***** I am an angel, I am the devil, I've been through hell, so get on my level. I'm forward bound and goal oriented, but the block is where I can be found, turnt up and disoriented. We've all got our vices, we all have a crutch, whatever to suffice, especially splittin a Dutch. It can come as a powder, it can be in a pill, just never lose the power of your freewill. Furthermore, it's best to never assume, that your grip on reality can't be taken, cause at that moment you've been consumed, the altered thoughts induced hinder bein awaken. A powdered perception precipitates self resent, leaves the future in question, but a powdered past reciprocates repent, by revealing itself as a blessin. God works in a mysterious way, acceptin of your flaws, I don't fear judgment day, I lived with a cause

I apologize for bein me at times, causing your emotions to drain, committing relationship crimes, and causing you pain.
I have turned your sunny days, into gloomy skies, and I wish that was just a phrase, but I have lied, made you cry and for that I apologize.
Too long I've made you wait, to become the man you deserve, should have already met him before stepping up to the plate, but my own mind gets on my nerve.
The cliche states that it's mind over matter, which for a child is a great start, preparing them for the inevitable shatter, of dealing with a broken heart.
I gather the pieces off the ground, and put them in their place, not realizing what could have been taken.
Understanding what has been found, the genuine smile to grace my face, HE whispered Jonathan you're still an angel in the makin.