The dreadful curse of a man like me
Is no-one to share that cup of tea.
Loneliness the silent killer
Insiduosley creeping closer .

Would be alright for a man like me
Except for the thing that burns in me.
Could easily be fixed with someone here
But my soul has only space for her.

What need a bath for a man like me
I only take them if I get fleas.
But I don't get those little critters
So the baths not for me but one that matters.

Goes over her head and past her ear
Does not see all  I've done is for my other.
Can't see what I do here is not for me
But for the other soul with which to have tea.

I can feel this life literally slipping away
Can not fix it with food or any other way.
Cause the fuel for my life rests with another
Loneliness fixed only when the yin is hither.

Here at zero
Gone at twenty.
Lost time never regained
Future untold.


No one here
No one to hold.
Nothing lost,nothing gained
It just keeps spinning in my brain.

Here at plus thirty
Gone at plus forty.
Lost time never regained
Future untold.


No one here
No one to hold.
Nothing lost,nothing gained
It just keeps spinning in my brain.


Will it always be this way,
Or will it change some rainy day?
Only time will tell the truth,
But times running out,not long now then only earth!

I think of you everyday
And everyday for you I pray.
But you ai'nt coming hometoo soon
A pair of cats and a nice full moon.

It may all be inside my head
But without you here I'm as sure as dead.
It's been slow and a long time coming
But it won't be long without you running.

And not away like you've done before
But coming back on through your door.
I'm still standing in the same old place
But without you you'll be the one who wins the race.

I'm scared and lonely,can't live alone
Without you to do for my lifes blown.
I knew where I was going when you were here
I had someone to do for and someone to care.

Your the one that makes my heart skip a beat
Gave me purpose,a future and goals to meet.
Now there's nothing but an empty shell
Now its just a lonley dell.

I've known you now for thirty years
And still you bring me down with tears.
Loved you twenty of those years
But now all you do is play on my fears.

I'de take you anywhere you want
But feel your putting on a front .
You keep me dangling on the hook
I've read about you in a book.

You always call for me in time
When your lonley or need to chime.
I always come ,you know i will
But god its hard to swallow this pill.

You know that I'm in love with you
And use that knowledge to the full.
But watchout soon I wont be here
Then you can live with all your fears.

I can't go on without you here
And I can't go on while you are  there.
So now its time for me to run
Use someone else to have for fun.

Held a candle in my hand
Gave me warmth and lit my way.
Then a storm brewed and moved the sand
Burnt my fingers and melted away.

With it went my heart and soul
Left me standing in the dark.
Stumbling blindly in a pool
East,west ,south or north;to dark.

I stumble down the rabbit hole,
Deeper and deeper it seems to go.
I look up out of it into the sky
But its so deep now I can only cry.

Things and people that make you right
Never seem to stay to reach the light.
But in the end objects dont move
Only people you love seem to break the rule

Love is not a virus
something you shift with pills.
its a feeling and emotion
and if your not carefull kills.

Lonliness is horrid,
and not something to endure.
Its destroying and pudrid
and there is no physical cure.

You can call your head
to rule your heart
but it doesnt fix a thing .
Cause loving someone in your heart
you cannot  start to understand
what makes your head all spin.

We dont choose to fall in love with someone
it happens naturally.
we cant control those weird feelings
their unexplained reality.

So try to put it down to science
the gut controls the brain.
But if you try to explain it all that way
in your life it will always rain.

Total departure to our needs is the reckless stupidity of how we are becoming our own executioners.When looking down on mother earth from father sky they wonder as to what their siblings are dreaming of as they hurt and maim their own mother.
When will people who justify their greed ,instead of need realise that their greed will not even give them their very  basic requirements for being here!
Humanity,through some strange concept,has set itself up,knowingly,as the controller and destroyer of all that gives them their basic needs,"their mother and father".
Man in his greed has even tainted the rays of light which give us our birthright,LIFE,for without it we would not exist.
By an infinite membrame,or so greed presumes,lying between good and bad,we live or die,but greed has stretched and widened that belief to horrific depths in the name of need.How long before it SNAPS?!
The coolerof our mother and bearer of us is poisened and wasted every moment. The ever overexploiting ****-sapiens will not letgreed stop them,even in their mothers death cries.A huge propergater of everything,mother gries in pain as she starves and with her ,her siblings.
The sun now burns her soft skin and moisture does not stay to cool her as she sweats.How long must or can she endure this torture?
Would we do it to our human mothers?
A family tree of pain is her reward for nurturing us.Her womb dries as the moisture is ****** from her veins and poured on to her belly as she screams.The sun rips it from her no longer cool and loving but hard and fierce like a furnace.
Onwards greed trespasses into herpumping heart,her skin is poisened and erupting like puberty,but still man is unmoving in his attitude to himself.
She speaks to them everyday but they do not hear or sense in any way her agony.Oblivious to everthing greed rumbles on deaf to its very basic needs and requirements.
As she criesfor help,her breath encompases all as she resusitates all with her sibilation.Can you smell you mothers breath?Will this last vain hope of hers go unoticed as greed races against its now foul wind?
"YES" because greed has stunned even your basic senses.Yo do not see,you do not hear,you do not feel,you do not taste ,you do not smell,even your most common sense of all is wasted "SURVIVAL!"

Between the three elements lies another.Without any one of the three the other is non-existant.
Running headlong,greed does not even notice its own reflection,blinded by its own need!Our mother is wek,her milk is drying,her skin is wrinkling,her touch is burning,her sight is blined,her taste is foul,her breath is stifling and her hearing is fading,she is DYING.
Her umbilical cord is strangled as it dries up with the assassination of her soul.  Will her soul be heard after we have  vanished or will we awke from our sleep of arrogance and greed and realise that EVERYTHING is not worth NOTHING.

For when she dies her death throughs will mame and slaughter us even as we count-?

                                                                        

                                                                                  "OUR MONEY"

Took my heart
Took my soul
Took my friends
Almost took my life.

Left me with nothing
Inside of me .
Like an empty pod
Thats missing a pea.

Come and go
like everythings allright.
But then again
you dont hear my screams at night.

Here i am lost at sea
My rudder parted company,
with me.

My guide for life
broke away,
and has left me floundering
like a whale.

My luck has turned,
it drifts on back.
I go to grab it
but it turns its back.

Just enough so i get a touch,
then drifts on past.
What the hell was that.
Enough to give one fading hope,
Then taken away,
What a joke.

And on  and on it goes around,
just when I get it
it lets me go.
To drift again all alone.

I've grabbed at other parts to fit
but this boat only takes on bit.
That rudder that guided me straight and true
has left and taken my life with you.