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As a young child being told going to church is the life to live because its all positive and smoking **** and partying is all sin but isn't to much of a good thing bad for health. But i catch my self preying to God for help. We choose our own destiny we walk our own path we be who we want to be that our life and our right.
These words stabbing me in the heart as i write them pain has always been a habbit i put my self in this rabbit hole time to dig my self out that's why rabbit ryhmes habbit
we love to spend money on our selves like if we are really worth it. when there's someone in need we pay them now mind we say we have now time to stop. you keep it moving when it can only take a second of your precious time.
That person could be your neighbor I'm talking about getting up and making a difference There's no need for ignorance I can more but it can or may not be the truth But have something to say there proof. I've struggled all my life i don't feel pain don't even know the meaning this not a story anymore it's only a feeling.
I woke up in the morning downed a bottle scotch, sat in my favorite chair, grab my favorite rifle put barrel in my mouth said no........ not today I'm sick and tired of going to the hospital getting pricked with needles like I'm not of this earth I yell on top of lungs this is my life there are many like but this one mine over and over till it grows...echo...echo....echo...I recite this like if was in the military i cry like if i was in battle in a way I am I'm fighting like if the bald shinny head doesn't give away cancer is a battle all in its own we fight till we cant fight anymore
we hurt till we can't feel just because I choose not to show my emotions on my wrist does not mean I don't have feeling why should I live on if all we feel is pain I should tally on my wrist how many times I hurt my self I'm tired of this pain
                                                           BANG!!!!!
I cant feel anymore, I don't hurt, The pain is gone. This my life there are many like it but this one mine
yo, Listen to the story ima tell way back wen i saw this bad chick and she casted a spell right, I was chillen with the crew yeah u now my ****** we were rocking some snapbacks and the clippers I was checking her out I saw her face yeah u now lovey lovey dovey all up in my space my boys was sayin she's a seven she a nine in my mind i thought she's a dime so i was checking her out straight up and down i notice her just noticeing me she was rocking some J's with a short mini skirt she had the Jordan symbol on a v cut shirt i pulled up right next to her we was chitin chattin for a lil bit exchange numbers told to call me in a lil bit the relationship was in full gear i just told her all that she wanted hear like she pretty and like your  hair i don't wanna come across as thirst i just wanna **** and wanted to be her first wen she ask me if already had it i lied and told her yes try to look in her eys so she won't notice i was staring at her chest every time we kiss i take a deep breath she is feeling high cause I now what to do i bite her lips i kiss her neck grab her hips her body tight tying to set that mood right u now what I'm a do tonight started from the top worked my way down took her ******* off so i can see that view told I'm a do u right and eat it to told her I'm going make her feel brand new she said take it easy you now I'm new told her me too when I do what I'm a do when i get on top of you I'm a test your vocals out and you singing ooooooooh! girl you now it's nothing baby girl I'm not fronting was not lying when i said you are my first.
Even if you don't love me I'll still walk away with that love instead of not being loved at all,
i will pick myself up when I fall. Put a piece of myself on the very top of the shelf , take myself down when i need different tools like a man goes through his tool box.
I saw butterfly in hell today, it showed me that beauty exists in suffering.
Tomorrow is not promised,
today will not last forever,
so live life like the hour glass will never run out of sand.
The end of time is miles away, an I'm passing cars at 90 miles, I don't plan on slowing down, the road spans for eternity I'm not worried.
I don't want you to save me, I want you to stand next to me while I save myself.
I need your help to pick the liquor counter up, shooting for the moon, reach and grab the stars that are always shining
Comfort the angels that are always crying... no wonder the rain falls over me.
So god bless thee and the land of eve.
If there's food for thought I'm guilty of greed, mama told me to take what I want. I took me!
Even though you don't love me I'll still walk away with that love instead of not being loved at all,  pick up myself up when I fall and save my own life so I can go out and save another.
Even if you don't love me I'll still walk away with that love instead of not being loved at all,
i will pick myself up when I fall. Put a piece of myself on the very top of the shelf , take myself down when i need different tools like a man goes through his tool box.
I saw butterfly in hell today, it showed me that beauty exists in suffering.
Tomorrow is not promised,
today will not last forever,
so live life like the hour glass will never run out of sand.
The end of time is miles away, an I'm passing cars at 90 miles, I don't plan on slowing down, the road spans for eternity I'm not worried.
I don't want you to save me, I want you to stand next to me while I save myself.
I need your help to pick the liquor counter up, shooting for the moon, reach and grab the stars that are always shining
Comfort the angels that are always crying... no wonder the rain falls over me.
So god bless thee and the land of eve.
If there's food for thought I'm guilty of greed, mama told me to take what I want. I took me!
Even though you don't love me I'll still walk away with that love instead of not being loved at all,  pick up myself up when I fall and save my own life so I can go out and save another.

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