Your eyes
I look deep into them as if I'm looking
Into the deepest depths of the ocean
And the slightest change of your emotion
Is like a fish flitting quickly about
And it reveals itself only for me to see

But now
Something has changed
Your eyes
Burn me and wreck me and break me apart
I look into them and see not love
But only the darkness seen from far above
By other people not inside your soul's sea
And the distance slowly breaks my heart

And now again
Something has changed
Your eyes
Invite me in their depths now fully opened
They reveal me the breadth of your thoughts
And I see the beautiful ocean’s deep as I ought
I reside for a moment in this blissful peace
Then I realize the fish are no longer swimming in

Your eyes
Empty now
Gazing back up at me

Complacently living in an unspoken word
Because letting it out is too absurd
And living with this is easier than
Falling and starting from where we began
Because I can’t acknowledge this trial
So I hide the feelings of which it’s compiled
Running from shame and running into it
No one is here to help block this conduit
I'm confused and unsure of what I can do
Relying on ideas I know are untrue
My emotional foundation is so unstable
Because I base all of it on you

Help me to be free.

I live locked inside a cage of culture
The box given to me by society
Circled at birth by my own ethereal vulture
Always stalking me ever so quietly

Help us to be free.

We walk through the same old mazes
As we laugh at the lab rats so oblivious
Knowing we’re so similar never does faze us
It covers up the reality far too hideous

Help them to be free.

You must understand the one release
The only true escape from this hamster wheel
A swift realization and blanketing peace
Understanding the truth lies not in what we feel
But looking within

Sets us free.

Just take one look
At the vibrance all around
Just one moment
To see the life in the ground
Enjoy those things
The growth below and above
Hold someone tight
Take them and bask in their love

It’s those heathen *******
Who have life so nice and easy
They go and find their broken lovers
But all I find is love broken in pieces
So what makes my life so **** hard,
And theirs such a ******* breeze?
I work so hard to play my part
And they get ****** in blissful peace
I’ll never have a sinner’s heart
But sometimes I can’t swim these seas
Though their soul is falling apart
Sometimes my mind needs that release

I have so much pain and so much rage
Toward the one who built this cage
But look, surprise! That person is me
And all the pain will not be free
Until I can grasp what makes it run
And forgive myself for what I’ve done
It just sounds like a regular time
But it’s very different, this pain is mine.