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503 · Oct 2011
A Lesson Learned
John Lunceford Oct 2011
Well i started out thinking that everything's okay.  Only knowing that love was simple. And i still remember like it was yesterday. When you said that you wanted to see other people. And now our lives were no longer set. No longer we will ever be together. And i bet you even regret saying, that we would last forever. And it just seems no matter how hard i try, and i try every single day. I just keep wondering why, why do i still feel this way. I mean what does he have that i can't give you. And does make you laugh the way i use to do. And i know I'm not who you wanted me to be. But have you already forgot that you once loved me. It's just so hard now to only be a friend, when all you ever do is talk about him. I just wish i would have never let you go. I guess i was to blind to see. but now i just have to know, what makes him so different from me. I mean I'm glad you found what you've been looking for. Only because i know he can offer you so much more. But soon you will realize what you did. But then again i guess you got the life you've always wanted, as i can see. And now you don't have to sacrifice anything because of me. So no need to worry, I'll be just fine. You've made your decision, now it's time I've made mine. And now i have nothing left to say, no need to be concerned. Just wanted to thank you, cause i consider this a lesson learned.....
418 · Oct 2011
The One
John Lunceford Oct 2011
Well i finally found the one, but only to lose her. A mistake she regrets every single day. And now i wonder if we will ever get back together and hoping she still feels the same way. Cause at first everything was great they were finally over. I mean it felt like this weight had been lifted off my shoulders. But now I'm so confused, i don't know what to believe, with everybody saying she was just using me. So right now my life just isn't that simple, finding it very hard now to trust certain people. But it's long process, now i see, just not having much success on finding the one for me. But its myself that i blame, i must confess. I was only wanting to help, trying too hard i guess. It's just that some days i wish, we could just start all over. I keep thinking why did it end like this. Maybe i should have never said i loved her. But i had to be sure that she felt the same way. And i guess now i know your answer, when you had nothing to say. So now i will just move on. Only to find someone who really cares. But it's hard for me to leave you all alone, when knowing that that's just one of your biggest fears.
John Lunceford Oct 2011
Well if love is pain, then this pain must be love. So now i keep it way down deep, but yet it's still not enough. Cause it's always the last thing i think of as i try to fall asleep. And its the first thing i notice as i begin to wake up. They say its better to have love and lost than to have never loved at all. But i didn't know how much love would cost or how hard i could fall...

      So now there's this pain in my heart, that I'm trying so hard to understand. But as it continues to fall apart, i feel it will start to change me from who I am. Cause now i so strongly believe, that for me its too late, and  how easy it is for me, to only love the things that i hate. Because there's this hole in my chest where my heart use to be. Once again i put it to the test, but only to fail so miserable. And now without I'm falling apart, I am dying inside, wondering who has my heart....
      
      And it's who give our hearts to that makes it such a dangerous place. Because when hate is all around you, finding love becomes so hard to face. And when you start to fall only hoping it doesn't break, you give them your heart and all, and that's exactly what they take. And now without it, it seems like i have nothing left to gain. Just not sure anymore of what it means, when you start to miss the pain. And now there is no more pain in this heart, that I've  had for so long to bare. It seems that it has completely fallen apart. Because im just not the same as i was before, where it came so easy for me to care. And now without being able to feel, to me my past is becoming so strange. I'm  just not really sure anymore of what's real. And the only thing i know now is just how fast hearts can change...

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