zoning in and out as blank as white,
i find no reason to awake and write,
my colors are dull and my hearing is numb,
is my reality really an illusion? or call me dumb,
dead in the head forever beneath the shining tree,
the shining tree that will release the spirit free,
turning into little tiny shafts of light,
the demon rose and said out of spite,
im here to turn your life into hell,
its up to you to get saved by the bell,
unfortunately the wake-up call never did come,
5000 miles into the ocean so i began and swum

always falling into holes,
always getting hurt by souls,
i never really do seem to learn,
at the crossroad and nowhere to turn,
my past seems to haunt me more and more,
giving up to fast and I'm about to fall to the floor,
the present doesn't seem to be to well for me,
in my life i feel that love is the key,
i need it to unlock the truth,
why don't you just knock out my tooth,
because at this point pain isn't felt,
i wish i could change this hand Ive been dealt

you are my star, you are my sun,
you are the hotdog to complete my bun,
you are the joy and the fun in my life,
i hope someday to call you my wife,
you are the breeze in which the ocean once knew,
i wish to stay so very true,
not loving you should be a sin,
you're the very air i take in,
i stay awake to think of you,
i love the way your eyes sparkle with blue,
the way your hair is a goldish blonde,
it feels like a touch from a magic wand,
the clothes you wear make me very aware,
so save me the despair, because i cant even compare,
the natural beauty of your existence,
makes me want to have very little distance,
i wish to take a little stroll,
just to be around your magical soul,
a strong force overcomes me when i see you walk by,
i feel like I'm flying through the sky,
your shape and your amazing structure,
oh my god..i just felt my heart rupture,
your the visions in my mind that sometimes cause me to go blind,
i feel one day we will attach and become entwined,
on that day a new definition of love will be created,
and the funny thing is we've barely dated,
the feeling i have for you can be described as an emotion,
i promise you to have strong devotion,
i guess what im trying to say is,
i want to be together,
and make you happy forever and ever.

as we weep for you,  you weep for us,
behind all the lies it turns into a fuss,
submerged beneath a heavy boulder,
i say together we should grow older,
everyday i seem to become bolder,
now take my hand and run with me,
we lay together under the tree,
the tree where we very first met,
stay with me and ill be set,
forever upon the darkest night,
please never leave out of my sight,
because god knows i need that light,
i promise that i will never leave,
love with you i tend to perceive,
we make love which you conceive,
sometimes i feel i can never die,
as long as you stay and never say bye,
i swear neither of us will ever sigh,
so run with me while we get high

without you my days are weak,
i only wish just to speak,
we've drifted fast and far away,
my happiness you have put on delay,
feelings died oh so very quick,
over a million girls you I'd pick,
there's something about the way you smile,
only for you id walk the extra mile,
I'm literally losing my mind,
a girl like you is hard to find,
i wish i could get you back in my arms,
i sleep the day away and wake to no alarms,
I'm broken inside and i don't know what to do,
i wish i could be given just a simple clue,
well..im fading away and wont be back,
my tears are gathering and by minute they stack

the shadows around me have seemed to thicken,
the pace of my heart slowly begins to quicken,
my mind is stuck and i feel alone,
this person i am today is just a clone,
one with a reality that isn't really there,
my heartache i can longer dare to bear,
as my true love blew out the door,
my tears start to drown me so i pour,
i pour my heart to you with my last breath,
maybe you'll love me back the day of my death.

my days are dull and i am sad,
oh how i needed you just a tad,
i feel empty and completely crushed,
my feelings for you were maybe rushed,
sorry to say it didn't work out,
i need to let go and no longer pout,
because with you in the end,
ill be crashing around the bend

If you would give me one chance and just listen to what i have to say,
i promise you together we would never decay,
together we will live on forever without any regrets,
together we will watch a life time of sunsets,
the sun will rise, and the sun will go down,
the promise i make to you is with me you'll never frown,
we could make parts of each other arise,
we would no longer be living in disguise,
our time together would fly by because there's so much love,
out feelings for each other would make us feel above,
when i look into your eyes,
i feel I've won the prize,
your beyond what any guy could ask for,
with you there's just too much to adore,
your the most precious thing I've ever seen,
i swear I'll let nothing come between,
when i see you i see your heart,
nothing will ever tear us apart,
you give me a vibrant feeling,
its a natural healing,
you make me feel this amazing way,
we must never stray away,
and if we do,
ill make sure your sway right back my way,
without you I'm left in a pitch black room with no light,
the thought of that leaves me in fright,
i need you to see, breathe, hear and live,
you keep me alive,
without you i cant survive

A needle in my arm..
How could this be,
Oh that's right cause your dead to me.
All the pain was it me or you,
I have not the slightest clue,
The games got old so so quick,
Now without a needle I get so sick.
You cut me so deep..
I can't take the pain,
So a needle in my arm keeps me sane.
The blood as its ****** inside,
Then with a push, into my veins it collides,
I'm Withered and dying,
And cannot stop crying.
I want so badly to just be gone,
Will I reach tomorrow mornings dawn?

It took so long..a raging war.
So much pain. Pain beyond measure. but I regret nothing..
Im finally happy.. Truely happy.

I know now who not to be,
Yes it took some time to see,
But i think it was time spent well,
Even if most of it was spent in hell,
Now heaven is so easy to find,
Its everywhere and im so glad its mine.

B

In and out of these places i go,
23 and nothing to show,
Is it me or was it you,
Maybe its us and the ****** too?

This hand has been dealt,
So i steal and lie,
And It cant be felt,
Why not just die?

In and out of jail i go,
****** makes me feel so low,
Its my enemy and friend,
A hand will it extend?

Surely so, back into its depths,
Turning blue taking no breaths,
Thats not enough to turn away,
I guess i need my soul to decay?

Who is this- this person i don't know,
He isn't my friend, only my foe,
He's caused me pain, he's left me to die,
I thought he was my friend, i really don't know why,
I fight him again, and i always lose,
To fight him again- is hard to choose,
He hurts me so bad, but i don't want to run,
But i only have my knife and he has his gun,
The odds are against me, but i need to be free,
I need to find out how to really be me.