Imagination
    by Joeysguy

  It was many years ago
  I happened to be at a casino

  After awhile I sat in a card game
  The casino dealer never said his name

  The dealer said these cards were of my future life
  He dealt me a jack, and a queen that represented a wife

  He dealt three more cards from the pack
  They were two more queens and a second jack
  
  I've dealt you a good hand, the dealer said
  That's what you'll have after your wed  
  
  The five cards totaled to a full house
  The three kids will be born to you and your spouse

  Place them all in your heart
  You'll have love from the start

  It all came true long after that game
  I found out that Heaven was that casinos name

Believing in Santa

By Joeysguy

At home it was just my mother and me
When I was a child we had a Christmas tree

That tree was about two feet tall
It was on top of the fridge against the wall

Mom would say, you have to be a good boy
And Santa would leave you a new toy

Christmas Eve he would come but then disappear
And he wouldn’t come again till the following year

I found out why there was only one toy for me
Because my mom didn’t have much money

As a child there were things I never knew
I found out about Santa not being true

Having a family with kids and a wife
Again Santa was back in my life

Telling my kids go to bed and turn down the light
If you want Santa to come tonight

Even our dogs got a toy and a treat
It would be a ball and something to eat

My wife and I were able to give the kids more
Some from Santa, most from a store

It’s been years since Santa came by
The kids grew up and my dogs did die

I haven’t had a Christmas tree in my house
Since the year that I lost my spouse

When I’m older and in my second childhood
Santa will come if I’m good

I’m asking only for my wife
To be with me for the little time left of my life

It’s Just A Band-Aid  

By Joeysguy

When I was small my mother had some tricks
She would say the band-aid was a quick fix

Using a band-aid to cover a scrape or cut
Keeping out the dirt and any ****

Some places I have trouble putting a band-aid on  
It’s only me, my wife is gone                                    

Recently a wasp had stung me
Confused, I looked to my wife to help me

I then remembered she is not here
Not sure of what to do gave me a little scare

I can put a band-aid on anywhere in front of me
I can’t put it on my back a place I can’t see

My wife wanted a band-aid on my mouth
Even my daughters say I have a bigmouth

I wish my mom taught me her tricks
I would swallow a band-aid, my heart needs a fix

My Empty Eyes
By Joeysguy

Years back living in a full house
With kids, dogs and a spouse

One daughter even had white rats
My other daughter with her cats

You had to be careful so as not to fall
All over would be toys, maybe a ball

At times I would help to put the kids to bed at night
Giving them a kiss before turning down the light

I would stand the kids against the wall
Placing marks to show them getting tall  

The kids were getting older and will move out one day
That day came and they did move away

It became hard for my wife to walk or stand
It would help when I would take her hand

One day my wife had passed on
My last two pets are also gone

I never thought I would lose my spouse
Now it’s emptiness that fills my house

Each time I enter a room
They are filled with gloom

Empty is a space in the bed we did share
Empty at the kitchen table is her chair

We were bound together by the words, I do
With wedding bands and saying I love you

My eyes are empty and I can’t see
I can’t see my wife in front of me

I Do, But Now Do I
By Joeysguy

I gave up being single and free
To have the love of Joey

I proposed  and she said yes I will marry you
On our wedding day we both said I do

After so many years I lost you
Not knowing now what do I do

Why do I hurt so bad
Why do I feel so mad

How do I ever go on
I can’t get passed you being gone

Do I give your stuff away
Do I move or do I stay

Do I remove my wedding band
Do I take it off or move it to the other hand

I feel people don’t understand what I’m going through
Until it happens to them they have no clue

Together we started with the words I do
I hate this going on without you

Do I ever stop with the tears
I do love you, and for the rest of my years

How Young We Were
By Joeysguy

My wife’s final day she lost the bout
At the hospital I collapsed my legs gave out  

They took me into the emergency
Nothing wrong they said with me

They couldn’t see my heartache  
They couldn’t feel my heartbreak  

At night when I go to bed
I twist and turn with thoughts in my head

Some nights to sleep is hard for me
Thinking of my wife I wish I could see

On my neck is my wife’s wedding band
I clutch it tightly in my hand

My body is tired and with some pain
Why do I go on what’s to gain

I wish I new the end to my life
I miss so much not being with my wife

I look at pictures how young we were
That’s how I wish to be again with her

Holding Back A Tear
By Joeysguy

At the bereavement group that I attend
It’s a place we don’t have to pretend

We hear stories of emotion and pain
Pretending here has nothing to gain

People come here in a sad way
Because of a life that had slipped away

Some people sit here with tears in their eyes
We all know that pain of when a love dies

With the stories that we hear
It’s hard to hold back a tear

Everyone here has lost a love
Taken from us to the heaven above

It’s always hard to keep a dry eye
Being here any of us may cry

We heard of a rock giving strength in ones life
For me it’s this group and the poems to my wife
 
The feeling of normal was asked of me
That normal in my life will never again be

People outside can act different as we know
We may hold back our feelings so as not to show

So this is the place we can be true
To ourselves and to each of you