Yeah, I fell from the sun
Which seemed to be two miles
Too high
Right now I feel human
Get it together now
Ride this wave that parts
My hair into
What I can take into my lungs and what’s been
Used up
Cover up the light
Lampshade
Push fade physics and rules
Listen to a song with your skin
Take it in
Feel right
Feel human
Human Scream
Levitate over blades guided by a
Human Stream
Of consciousness

Curve, bend, wretched lines into
Pure, perfect circles I can use to dot my eyes
See things and understand them
Vision breaks life into a process
Bit by bit
My lip
Trying to whisper words into pictures
So I can show you in my mind
What that picture we never took
Looks and feels like
Falling from the sun two miles
Too high
All you smuggled from my body
Will be taken in
To feel right
Feel human

Dotting my i's
tying off loose ends
why I wasted my time?
I cant comprehend

Chill in the air
Diamonds look dull
pressure in my brain
crushes my skull

Cant be myself
Contorted at the core
lets go back to "before"

I was happy
so it wasn't a waste
Now it's gone
but i remember
the taste

Maybe one day
While i'm dreaming
My mind teeming
and my smile, gleaming
I'll finally control the wheel
Everything is fine
But nothing can be this real

Last night I looked at something from the summer of 2009.
It was buried in the depths of my “sent” folder. Counterclockwise. Via email. Something small. Barely a few words at all. Feel as though I fell in time. Sent to an address I rarely see. Opened by a girl whose eye color is something I should forget.  Few words exchanged but it still put a dent in my timeline.
Just a couple of letters together, forming words. First it started with
“Hey”
Soon asking about your day
You replied with haste
(Which now seems humorous too me)
Nothing memorable was in your lines
But I put something in my mind
That in this brief period of time. Just a few words from your fingers put a voice between my ears. Conversation now is impossible. Your first name made me feel human. Because I finally cared for someone who wasn’t myself. I didn’t reply to what you sent me because I saw you shortly after. Now, close to 2011, I feel like I should say something back. Catch you off guard. Light a spark. Forest fire in your brain.
I began to construct a sentence. But before I could lay to rest my finger on a period, I gently held down delete.delete.delete. Till blank. Clicked the back arrow. Falling back up this rabbit hole to the present day.
I’m sorry I’ve been rambling on.
I should get back to work.

Did I push you away
With all my heavy words
Accused of stealing
A feather
Blame me for why
You can’t fly

You’re turning mere thoughts
Into marathons
Take a breather
Though each breath you undergo
Absorbs air from my pleading lungs

Do you want me to push you
So you can fall twenty seven stories
And by the time you fall past ten
You’ll understand what you want
Turn my pockets inside
Out of time
Now, just another crack on the pavement

Take the stitches out of
My skin like words
Complicated curves
The mural on my back
Stained by an idea
That grew in your head
It’s now what you believe
And it’s become who I am

How you think, lays boulders on my spine
Give me a break

Tonight
I just want to get ******
And lay underneath the night sky
So I can take stars
Switch them around
Like puzzle pieces till I complete your face
Proceeding, I ask multiple questions to the heavens
And wrap myself in the warm blankets of true sentences
You kindly whisper down to me

It’s 11:57 on a Sunday night
Brunette hair
Sharing a bed with me
Where did it go
Hide and seek with time

Barely a second ago it was 11:56
Must’ve blinked
Time can skip
like
a
record
When you’re not paying attention
11:59
****, it’s almost tomorrow
A new day
And they say,
With each new day hope is restored

12:00
Yeah, no way
The sun will come up again
But everyone remembers yesterday
Hope isn’t restored
Everyone remembers my ****

I long for a time
12:00
On a Saturday
And nobody knows
Where I’m at

How did we ever come to this conclusion
That the human *****
The Heart
Is associated with the feeling of love

Why not the brain
Because a series of situations must fall into place in order for us to fall in love
We need to understand we are in love
It’s like a process
We have to meet our soul mate
We have to take them out
Spend a significant amount of money on them
To let them know they matter significantly in our lives
You see our brain has to break these things down
Back down a single molecule

We have to understand that we are drawn to this person
For some unknown reason, divine intervention perhaps
When we think about the one we love we get happy
I feel this in my head
Not in my chest

Then when you didn’t return my love
I thought about it with my brain and came to the conclusion that I was sad
That’s when I understood that love come from the heart too
Because when you left, it literally felt like my heart dropped
I didn’t get that sensation in my head
I felt that one in my chest

if I
never drove those roads
Answered the late-night phone calls
Sat and watched the stars
Just to feel human again
Or took walks at night
Just so our footsteps would match

If I
never sat up worried at night
Because somebody wasn’t okay

If I
never played my guitar for you
I wouldn’t think about you every time I play it
Where you sat
What you said to me when I was done
It escapes my mind how something
Can just crumble and fall to the ground

It’s laughable now but
If I
never fell asleep
Well of course I’d be tired
But I’d still be sane
You’re within my sight
When I close my eyes
When I turn off the light

“If” is a word that makes us think
About the past
And what could’ve happened
What would’ve
Or what should’ve happened
If a “if” was a wish
And a wish was a want
And a want was a need
Then I could dream happily
Only if…

You see,
What I hear is loud music
But if you turn it down this house is filled
With conversation and laughter
When you take that away
You can almost feel the good vibes
Weave themselves in-between connecting rooms

I’m coming down from my high
But the drink in my palm will pick me back up
And If that doesn’t work
Then I’m just happy to be where I am

Flashes in the corner
People holding on to memories
Still portraits of how they’re feeling at this very moment
It’ll be something fun to look at in five years

If you carry a party foul attitude when you walk in
Might as well slap and kick yourself out
There’s no room for that amongst friends
There are so many people in the world
And if everyone acted as such…
Then we really wouldn’t get that far

So come on in
Think of that welcome mat
As a hug
Instead of something you wipe your feet on

The front door
Is a high-five or a handshake
From a good friend you haven’t seen in awhile

Hey, step out of the cold
This is home
This is warm

You can leave if you’d like
I’ll keep the light on
Keys under the mat

I can hear you come in at 3 a.m.
I am still
I lie awake
Though appear sleeping

Crawl under warm sheets
And imagine you were here the whole night
If that’s what you want me to believe
I still wake up next to you
So, I’ll believe

Roll down the car window
And stick your hand out

This is all life is
Multiple things rushing passed
Our bodies
You can’t really catch it
But you can ride the feeling
And…
Yeah, it feels pretty good

Kind of like an acoustic guitar
That makes you smile
When it’s sunny outside
Perfect day on the lake
Let’s go

What drives our bodies
Where do we exactly find “motivation”
And in turn how do we translate it
I don’t really want to wait forever
To find out what I’m meant to do

You see, I come with a manual
But like most people
I’m too stubborn to even read it myself
Life doesn’t have instructions
So therefore
Nor should I

Roll down the car window
And stick your hand out