I'm not gonna lie
At times when I'm alone
I cry
I shed a tear 
Or 2
And I feel like no 1
Understands what I'm going through 
But I have to keep my head up
And when I fall I have to get up
I was once told 
Not everything that shines
Is gold
And just because you have someone
In your life doesn't mean they will
Always be there to hold
And just because I cry 
Doesn't mean I'm weak
And just because im silent
Doesn't mean the world can't 
Hear me speak
And action are louder 
Then words 
But what good are words
If they're never heard 
And how can we prepare for
The future 
Without studying the past
And how can I think about my next step
If I haven't finished my last
And how can someone be so close
But seem so far
Surrounded by people
And still feel alone
And the place where I lay my head 
Not feel like home
And how do they want me to lead 
If I have yet learn to follow
It's hard to swallow 
But maybe I'm doing everything wrong
All along
And they say with each ending
Comes a new beginning 
But it seems like with each beginning
There is always an ending
How could something so dear to me
Frighten me
Maybe the same way 
Dark things
Enlighten me
You know teach me 
All these thoughts go bye
In a blink of an eye
So yeah I'm not gonna lie 
I cry 
From time to time

Something needs fixing 
Something has gone missing
So I start with the man in the mirror
I get up close just to see clearer 
I try to figure out what I see
But what I see isn't me
Broken down and disfigured 
Reassembled but misconfigured 
Like a collage glued together
With tears,  pain, hurt, and lies
False hopes, empty promises,
A bunch of tries, and silent cries
But I hide all this 
Cause who would want this
**** I barely want this
So what doesn't **** you makes you stronger?
I don't believe this to be true
Cause at times I don't know what to do
So as I stare upon this reflection
Straight opposite of perfection 
But I have to start somewhere 
So I start here 
With the man in the mirror

My deepest fear is ....
not that I'm inadequate To loving you
It's  falling for you 
It's dealing with something so powerful 
That I can't control 
Can't contain or hold, Bend or fold 
something greater than you and me 
Something I can't see but I can feel With in me
It's scary falling not knowing 
Where you might end
Where this might lead 
Whether its real or fake
What I might have to give or take
It's being happy beyond imagine
Beyond comprehension 
It's being loved beyond measure 
It's having this to treasure
My deepest fear is .....
US .....

Emotions run cold 
When your no longer here to hold
Ice runs through my veins 
My heart carries stains 
And scars
So I bury it in the dark abyss 
"I love you"
I hate that I remember this
Coming from you 
It would be easier just to erase you
Just to CTRL + ALT + DEL  
But if I do I delete apart me
I know it's for the better 
But I can't stand not being together 
I'm torn 
Torn in two 
Can't imagine a life without you
But you've caused so much pain
That me and pain see each other constantly
Emotionally, and mentally I'm broken
Some say love is a token 
But I have nothing to Show for it
Emotions run cold 
This **** is getting old 
But I still don't know why it's you 
I still want to hold

This is for the lovers who give and never receive
This is for all those people who loved me
This is for the ones who cry
   for the ones who try
This is for all those who we're deprived
This is for all those who never got their light
This is for those who might have lost their sight
    but still put up a fight
This is for the single mother whose child will be sheltered and covered
This is for the million and one tears shed from a broken heart
This is for the families whose lives have been torn apart
This is for the trust worthy
This is for the lonely
This is for the what ifs and oh wells
This is for the I don't give a **** and I don't give a hell
This is for people who live life and don't waste time
This is you who puts a smile upon this face
This is for the person who lights up this place
This is for your lonely cry
This is for your special guy and your special girl
This is for the world
This is for the people at the bottom and top
And everything in between
This is for you from me

I'd rather be with you 
Cause what's two 
Without my one
subtracting my happiness 
Adds on stress
Which multiplies to me being a mess
And divides me in two
All this equals me without you

Kiss me kiss me like you miss me
Hug me like you love me
Turn my wishes of fantasy
Into reality 
Help me bury my past 
Make the present last 
Although the future maybe 
Unclear to me 
I only wish to spend it with thee
So let me wish 
Wish upon a star 
That this love never seems too far
Out of reach
Be my happy never end
Your my other half and my friend
This undeniable love
Something close to me
The thing I hold dearly
To my heart 
Pure like sun rays 
Memorable days
Endless smile
Endless hugs
Just living in your presence 
Bathing in your essence 
When I dream I dream of this
How this is bless
And when I reminisce 
About love 
I reminisce 
About this one