You know, when I said I'd die for you,
I didn't realize you would be the one that would **** me.

I need to die

AAAAAHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!
I just want to scream myself to death.

You destroy me.
You talk about him like he's so amazing,
But you still tell me that you love me.
You say things that bring me little bits of hope.
Even when I know you're gone.
Are you just playing me?
Why do you do this to me?
It tears me apart from every direction.
Please just tell me its over or you'll be back.
Don't leave and tell me you're coming back.
Because you know  I'll wait forever.
I would die waiting for you.
Even though I know you aren't coming back.

That moment when you don't know what's going on.
That moment when you hope its you she's talking about, but you aren't sure.
That moment when she says she loves you, but she loves him too.
That moment when she wants you back, but she still won't come back.
That moment when you pray that she'll come back, but you know she's moved on.
That moment when you know you should give up hope, but you can't.
That moment when you realize its over, what a sad day that will be.

My thoughts are all I have anymore.
But the thoughts I think are so sick.
I think about how I could sneak to your house.
I could get you outside and **** myself in front of you
To make you see the pain you put me in.
I think about how I could hurt myself,
So that you would feel sorry and come back.
I think about writing you things,
Things that will eat you alive.
But in the end, they are just thoughts.
They will never become actions.
They will just continue to eat me alive,
Until I am nothing.