if I'm not the same tomorrow

please remember who I was today

because I can't seem to remember

it doesn't make sense in my head how it came

to this

but when it's written in stone

what is there to stop it?

I can't change the past

and it's already set my future

but it's alright

don't miss me tonight

don't miss me tomorrow

don't miss me ever

because

it's not worth it

it will never be worth it

I will never be worth it

darling don't cry

don't you ever shed a tear over

me

because if you waste your feelings on the

worthless

what will be left for the

priceless?

That's all I'm saying
What do you expect me to say?
You know I'm always wrong
You know that
So I don't know why
You're acting suprised
I'm always wrong
Always
Always
It's just me
Punishment
That's all I can even think about
At this moment
Why am I so sorry
Yet I cant even tell you that?
Because that's all I ever say to you
I'm sorry
I'm sorry dear
That's all I ever say
Because all I ever do is mess up
I just always do
And the thing is
Why do you even stay?
I still don't get it
And I try to be there
I do
I really do
I care so much
And never know what to do
It's not because im young
It's because im foolish
I never know
Never
And I'm sorry
And that's all I ever say
Because there's nothing else I can do
Worthless
That's all its ever been
My title
But if I could I'd change it all
I'd do better
For you
I would
And I try
And every time I try I fail
It's just a repeat
Every few weeks
What brought us to this point?
Maybe I should have never spoken to you
That first day
Then I wouldn't be
This hassle in your life
I was so dark
And I grew
And tried to break free
And I couldn't
Here I am
Trying to act like my life is the best
Like I don't need you
Because you don't need me
You choose to stay with me
I can't even choose
I'm so lost
And it's all my fault
And I'm sorry
And once again
That's all I ever say
But I am
All I do is mess up
With you
I never knew
I'll never know
I'll never get it right
So why do you continue
to stay?

Could you just walk to me in the moonlight?

Break through the glass and come inside.

Lay by me on the fluff and hold me in your arms.

Hold me while the rain falls.

Keep the enemy away from me.

Because I’m addicted.

And I can’t stop.

I even promised and I still didn’t stop.

Feed me.

I’m starving.

Make me keep it.

Hold my hand while I walk to the stage.

Just hold my hand while the world shakes.

While it grows hot and pounds around me.

Listen to me while I confess.

All the things I’ve done in my life.

They’re not all good.

But don’t judge me.

Please.

I can’t take it anymore.

Before you'd tell me I was smart,
And I started to believe.
But then I had a thought,
And you left me without ease.
You said that it was dumb,
To think such a thought.
But the thoughts that I was thinking,
Were tearing me apart.
Does that still make them stupid?
Does that still make them dumb?
The thoughts that I am thinking,
Are the ones that make me numb.
The thoughts that fill my mind,
They haunt me in the night.
I cannot get to sleep,
Without my brain trying to fight.
And now you've just added,
Another thought to my head.
With all these thoughts going on,
I'd much rather be dead.

I chopped it off because it reminded me of then.

I won't stay trapped in the past.

I wouldn't dare go back there again.

I painted it purple because it put me at ease.

It helped me move on.

Like a warm summer breeze.

I write it all down so that I can remember.

So that I won't make the same mistake twice.

I don't want to relive this cold December.

I sketch it out so that I can see.

Though it doesn't even look good.

Drawing it out helps me understand me.

I'm new.

So are you.

But I don't mind it.

At all.

So ignore it.

And come back.