(hi,) hi. (how was your weekend?)
i spent in on nothing. i spent it
trying to cover up a sensation.
(i went for a run), or (i went to the gym.)
it felt like static inside my head. it
felt like static through my legs. what
kind of free time is spent feeling
like static, like pins poking and
needles pulling? (then i made dinner
for the family.) i spent time in a toxic
hole that people have helped me
out of many times before. i just keep
diving back in. you should learn
by now, you should learn. you’re
doing everything you can to learn.
it’s just not sinking in. it’s okay.
sometimes there are just topics
we’ll never be able to understand.
(walked the dog, went to the store.)
sat in space for hours and watched
the sun rise, watched the sun set,
wondered how it became two
useless days later already. guess it’s
time for bed. (so what did you do?)
oh, nothing much, pretty quiet.