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Feb 2019 · 6.6k
nutrition of pain
jacob lebsanft Feb 2019
Never free
Under pressure of all that see
This weight
Rips and tortures me
In my struggling I just want to be set free
To tell you the true
I’m lost in my dreams
Of course, now you see you will
Never see the true me
its an acrostic poem
Feb 2019 · 298
The flightless spirit
jacob lebsanft Feb 2019
you can feel it right the wind
the breeze that blows
the breeze that give flight
this breeze of freedom
it gives my spirit freedom and hope  
but I’m stuck I can’t fly
I’m grounded clipped at the wings
I just wish to fly but these shackles that keep my spirit bound here
But for now, I will just wait here and believe that one day
I will find the key
And take flight and be that spirit I see o so free
I've been weighted down by my thoughts lately so i decided to give myself the freedom to just let it out
Nov 2018 · 204
delirious
jacob lebsanft Nov 2018
the voices there back there talking, pondering, plotting there insane there driving me insane i'm insane its all gone i'm crazy no i'm not crazy i'm delirious yes i'm delirious i'm out of my mind
Nov 2018 · 474
sword art
jacob lebsanft Nov 2018
my sword is my protection my love for you is my power
you gave me a reason to fight in this death game and a reason to get back to the real world you are the black swordsman and me i'm lightning flash together we will see this game to the end and the fall of aincrad
i just finish an anime that was very close to my heart
anime: sword art online
such a great start and a beautiful end for the two main characters that i became so attached to
Nov 2018 · 185
the snake
jacob lebsanft Nov 2018
you are the prey and i am the snake

you think i'm friendly but all the other side is doing is waiting to strike and when i does my true colors show the colors of a snake and i strike without remorse and all i do is watch you fall but with each strike each victim i lose part of myself
I've hurt a lot of friend's so i see myself as a snake
Nov 2018 · 318
the fools world
jacob lebsanft Nov 2018
welcome to the fools world the world of tricks and lies
but you are looking at a mirror in this world for i am the master and you are the fool this is my world and here i'm the fool
Nov 2018 · 181
i'm not normal
jacob lebsanft Nov 2018
i'm not normal just accept it
i'm different why do you reject it
i'm  not the same as you just believe it
thought the answer from be you should be seeking is why am i not normal
the answer is simple i just not
i work differently to you but i get the job done
and it can better then yours
i'm not normal i'm special
this poem is base off of my adhd a lot of teacher tell me things to do that will hinder my ability to grow and even when i tell them how they can help they are the ones not listening
Oct 2018 · 132
the fire star
jacob lebsanft Oct 2018
standing here on the edge of an island surrounded by a sea of ice to thin to walk on i look up to the stars to if anything can save me but there is nothing the day hides it all but there is one i feel its connection with me and so i wait for the night once it arrive i see it clear now this bright orange star casting it light down on to the ice and with out a thought i follow it's light and there it leads me to safety in a garden of flower and fruits i'm now so tired i just wish to collapses  but i don't i lie down on this soft grass in this garden staring up at the sky
this is just an idea that came to me to give a story to the poem of mine the stars
Oct 2018 · 139
the stars
jacob lebsanft Oct 2018
i lay here on the soft grass staring up at the stars now dotting the crystal sky my eyes set in stone staring at one impressive one this one is not like the others it sits there burn a beautiful orange almost feeling me with a fire i feel the sparks igniting my soul and for now i'm filled and connected with that star
Oct 2018 · 91
these feeling
jacob lebsanft Oct 2018
these feeling once o so faded return in a fury sparking and shocking every part of me it hurts the rush the return the feeling once thought to be forgotten by me overwhelm me and push me beyond I no longer understand why they return the only answer is love
jacob lebsanft Oct 2018
As some fly others fall
As love rises darkness falls
For those who love light the way and those in darkness fade away
For in love the light glows strong and in darkness it is but all gone
For with love comes joy and darkness comes misery
Yet still the people in darkness grow and the one in light slow fade
For there is now end to the cycle of darkness and light
When the light falls darkness rise
And then it begins yet again
jacob lebsanft Oct 2018
As some fly others fall
As love rises darkness falls
For those who love light the way and those in darkness fade away
For in love the light glows strong and in darkness it is but all gone
For with love comes joy and darkness comes misery
Oct 2018 · 116
the battle for gold
jacob lebsanft Oct 2018
In the golden light of the morning sun the fires still glow gold
With the fury of greed on the hills now dowsed in red and gold
Now as the corpses lay still and cold with the lust for gold expelled from their souls
And slowly as the final fall with the greed of gold still burning deep within their souls
For now the battle has dulled and the gold now darken by the blood of those who fell in their lust for gold.
Oct 2018 · 95
The clouds of my mind.
jacob lebsanft Oct 2018
For me to live is to give
For me to die is to lie
For me to love is to forgive
For me to hate is to deceive
For me to be happy I have to be at balance
But for me balance is but a dream a lie hiding in this fog of lies and deceit that clouds my mind
For me sadness is my reality and happiness is but a mere memory
The fog that clouds my mind is a built up on fears and lies and the promises of false hopes
The fog thinks and ponders on how It can part the last of the hope that light the alleys of my mind
It lies and hides and breaks apart this mind of mine that I so wished had survived
The onslaught of lies and harm that this fog has brought to this life of mine and others alike
For the happiness I show is all but a lie a mask to hide what lies behind
All my hopes and dreams are clouded by this fog of depression that shrouds my mind

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