You peered into the camera once,
And you cried
And I held you

I should have realized then
That all the love in the world
Would not make the damnest difference

A rainbow erupts in your little heart
I was hangin' out with blue
You were a little chummy with sunny orange
Too bad red don't want to be friends with us no more
A spectrum erupts in your little heart
Did I miss out on a chance at the real thing
Because I was distracted by the fog?
The fog's turned to smog,
And in this smog it's the clearest its ever been all along
But just a glimpse of hope is all I ever needed
To realize that everything is just a dream
That here and now, and this and that
All the specifics have turned
Upside down and inside out and
Become permanent spots in our vision.

I followed you down the snowy sidewalks
Of these winding streets
and unknowingly you led me here,
to the crossroads of your heart
and I looked around
to see you'd disappeared
Without a trace
You' left me here
lost in the arcs of your body,
the cold of your dark eyes enough
to freeze my heart in time.
The mysteries of your mind
throbbing within my arteries
Firing up my life blood,
Keeping me alive, love
In this frozen eternity.

It never did.
The minutes turn into hours,
Hours in weeks, Weeks into months,
But I still don't understand.

A wise woman says,
"Let go of wanting to know
There are things in life that have no answers."
But still I cannot be at peace.

And maybe I was naive to think
That deep down there was something
Something unmovable, something unbreakable
But instead, I found feathered flight and brittle bones.

I made you laugh,

I made you cry tears of happiness,

I loved every part of your body,

And though I doubted,

I always came back.

I fed you, cooked for you everyday

I touched you tenderly when you needed it

I kissed every part of your body

I inspired you to achieve your best

I walked with you

Took care of you when you were sick

I held you when you were scared

I reassured you of your goodness

I loved you, completely, unabashedly

And did everything I could to show you just how much you meant to me

I have no illusions about this thing

Sometime people regret having not done enough,

Or having done too much

But I know I only did what my heart told me to do

And I found that I have the capacity to love

For that I have to thank you

Its sad that your own heart cannot let you see how much of myself I have given to you

But I am grateful that you handed it back to me

That one day someone else might hold my heart in the right place.

I cringe every time I hear this word
It reminds me of how you could never let go of the past

Clinging on to anything else
Than the most important thing to me-
the moment we were living in

I was building memories then
The ones that play over and over in my head now
And you were trying to forget then
I think you must be an expert in forgetting now

I wonder if you think of us, nostalgia and all
And it makes me cringe, all over again

Remember

He loved you deeply

But he also hurt you deeply

Remember

That while you hurt

He hurts too

Remember

That you must fight your own battle

Not yours and his

Remember

That he began this descent

Pulling you in

This is not your fault, nor his

Remember

That there is no option

And that he cannot love you anymore

Remember

That that is the hardest thing to accept

And please keep your head up,

Because you are still lovable