15
the age we start drinking and smoking the ****
the time where we forget about doing good deeds
when reality finally came into play
we learned that life's all night and day
as we watch the world fight about not getting their way
and when our first love leaves us although we begged them to stay
it's when we realized that mommy and daddy don't always know best
they aren't superhuman they're no better than the rest
and teachers became the enemy of us all
instead of the ones who help us up when we fall
rebelling and lying is just what we'll do
until we're old enough to make good decisions
maybe once we're 22
but until then we'll continue to sin
when we have ***,love,and drugs where do we even begin
that first lover who touches us, who makes us believe
in a love, a good life, the lover who deceived
us because soon we'll grow up not to trust
we'll forget about real love and grow to want lust
we'll age and forget about all that we've done
with two kids and a mini van where's all the fun?
the fighting between a partner and you
a divorce that's so likely between the two
your kids are now mommy's and daddy's like you
and slowly the days are getting to few


and *it's over.

I went looking for God
but I found you instead.
Bad luck or destiny,
you decide.

Buried in the muck,
the soot of the city,
sorrow for an appetite,
devil on your left shoulder,
angel on your right.

You, with your thorny rhythms
and tragic, midnight melodies.

My heart never tried
to commit suicide before.

Seven more nights
of overflowing sunsets,

Soon the sleepless nights
will be gone.

Empty bottles
and burnt our cigarettes
are the reminder
that nothing lasts forever.

Words can not describe
how much i'll miss
the comfort of your laugh.

On this morning
my lungs are filled with the
sweet smell
of gasoline
and tears
as I watch you leave.

These times have changed,
and nothing
will be the same
again.

for the past two months
I have layed awake
until
at least
three a.m.
or so
attempting
to write a poem that will
read sweeter
than your lovers touch.

but for now,
I think too much for this to ever be
a possibility.

I am weak,
and certainly not clever.

which I am comfortable with now.

I think.