She once told me she was worth nothing
yet she did what others frowned upon,
and doing so truly made her happy.
That translates,
to me at least, that she has a lot self worth,
at the moment she knew the risks
and what people would say if they were to find out
but she would rather have a moment in the arms of the one she loved.
That’s courage sweetheart...
you are strong...
And yet through his eyes your drained of everything
I couldn’t anticipate what love could influence people to do
pushed against your own morals
that’s the battle
such emotion and passion allow us to do irrational things
and we know they’re wrong
But it feels so **** right
It’s a plight of your hearts desires
So go on girl, hold him tight
They’re plenty people asking for just
One More Night…

Cherishing her as if she were a star
and although it was far it granted a wish that close to his heart
but her shimmer quickly faded
he thought they could’ve made it
but because she destroyed herself from within
there was nothing left but darkness
and that wish could not exist without her
the wish was her...
she came and left like night and day
do you ever stop and think where the stars go to play when they're away?
and if they come back
why not simply burn into the atmosphere like the rest
and grant a wish of another whose heart is deprived of desire...
A cycle of disappointment
So what if airplanes in the night sky were like shooting stars
Ain’t a wish gonna come true tonight.

We wish everyday for something
never means that we will get it…
sometimes things just shouldn’t be
Then why can’t we go and forget it
Because no matter how much we want
Your heart and minds want what they want
A constant struggle between the two
But they’re the components that make up you

Its strange because time and time again I swear I’m done writing
yet your essence is poisonous
and against my will I pick up a pen and describe exactly how I feel
I can’t say everything I said before applies now,
mere strangers its hard to remember one thing and see another
Baby I’m so sorry that I bother
but if I could I would dip this pen into your essence
so that you could love these words too

Heart Break
Silent
Your mind runs through what happened
trying to understand where you lost control
when you very well may have not had it at all
you seek deep within to discover what had captivated you
yet your heart does not speak
you know very well its not complete
he’s claimed a piece for himself, and tossed it aside.

Your stuck trying to understand exactly how something like love could be abused
because throughout it all
its as though he was amused
carefully manipulating your heart to complete his hidden agenda
now you’re trying to find someone you once were
the after photos show a salvaged version, hardened by the pain he inflicted.

You think you’ve lost qualities that were apparent
You haven't they’re just lying beyond a door entitled, “The me you’ll never see”
and it hurts you more because you think it shows people you’re weak
when in reality you’re just individual
and believe me sweetheart people wanna tear that apart
because conformity equals normality and you’re just not a **.

On the case of “him” or “what used to be”,
he gave you happiness beyond belief so there was little reason to say no.
until a stampede of words reached your core and you had no choice but to let go
Thankfully,
time heals the deepest wounds
in this case you’re ensnared in a quicksand of memories that remind you of mistakes
and the sooner you accept them and stop struggling
the better chance you’ll have of escaping and recovering.

Worthless... Average... Not You.
You deserve more than what you give yourself credit for.

Much Love,
Jimmy Desire

Captivation

James Desire



Confusion erodes my mind,
as I re-read the words that have been engraved in time
words from the one I claimed was mine,
but never really was...

It wasn’t allowed
you and I, Forbidden
yet we tried to break the rules
and rebellion just wasn’t enough

Time with you was priceless
now it seems it was all meaningless
and I’m not sure why
You said, “I will always think of you as my baby”
but now it seems like you don't even know me
and I know a lot has changed, but I’m not transparent
“Can’t you see me?”

-Sigh-

Why’d we have to drift apart,
Didn't you believe the promise I made you,
that I would never leave you,
that I could never replace you?
It’s like it was goodbye forever
and you let the rain reach us
just so that it could teach us
that I couldn't protect you anymore
and it was time you broke free

Now,
time has changed the girl I knew and loved
into a woman whose has enough and scorns the world for the pain it delivered
our ties never really broken, just severed
by tension or little disagreements

Is this enough to break the friendship we once had or are we just calling it quits?
and for the record you may not have been captivated but I was,
just not by who you are at the moment...
With all this said,
Do you still think of me as your baby?
because after all we’ve been through,
no matter what you say or do,
I’ll never want to leave you.
You will always be my baby.

As always words are just words until proven otherwise,
but do you really think that these words have no meaning
because if they have none, then all of this has been for nothing
your amusement of my emotion, all because of a thought, a simple notion,
that I wasn't good enough for you...

Fragile

-James Desire



Your heart

A Flower

Ever so delicate

Takes time to bloom

In your case

It takes time to love

Or time to fall out of it

Even if you don’t want to

It might be for the best.



Your tears,

Trickle down your face

It breaks my heart

To see someone so beautiful

So strong

Sad and desperate for hope

Your eyes,

Become pregnant with the drops of your sorrow

Each drip

Echo’s louder than the last

You long for the sun

For with it she can express the spirit that has lie dormant

The sound of her voice

Although she may not realize it,

Brightens the day of many

Her smile emits the same cure

It’s a gift and a curse,

For she helps others

But feels diminished, empty

Her heart has infected her mind,

She follows its direction

Not realizing,

She is now impaired



Understand,

Your friends and I care,

Because you have shown that you do.

I’ve learned,

That the pain of a heart from another

Can be difficult to recover

But, possibly,

Together we can learn and grow

Because difficult isn’t impossible

Maybe,

Finally,

Conquer the sorrow that drowns us both

Reach a reality that once was a dream

A dream…

Happiness

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By: James Desire
                                    
Why do you put us through so much pain?
Do you really love him?
I guess we ain't the same…
A year ago,
We took a ride together,
In the rain and all the other bad weather
And yes we were cool,
Cause even after school
We were side by side
Chillen, laughin' and livin' the life
It was about a year later
And things got greater
Could've sworn you and I were meant for each other
But then things changed
We got so rearranged
And in the confusion of it all
Our connection was lost in the wash of the rain
And I understand what ever I thought we had is gone…
But whatever the situation may be
You know I'll always be there for my baby
And what I really want to know is…
Is this what you really want?
You still the same girl I met last year?
And Finally,
Since you wear a mask
Whenever I pass
Sometimes hesitate to ask
Are you REALLY okay?
Cause now a days,
The rain falls harder every time I hear your name.