Darren this is a poem IV wrote for you, to let you know everyone misses and wishers the best for you.



We know it’s not the best of times and you are allowed to cry, but don’t worry mate because everything will be alright. 



We love that smile your family and friends are there to hold you tight, and bring you cuddles all day and every night. 



Make sure this memory turns out to be something nice; we all wish the best for you if ever u needs to chat we always hear for you. 



As time passes by and minutes go by please don’t worry because everything will be alright.



Hope you get well soon just to let you know we always hear for you. 




Jidos Reality for Darren’s cancer charity 6.3.10

From the moment I saw you and looked into your eyes, when I held you close to me and saw your lovely smile.




I will always be your dad and your best mate, you will always be the reason I’m happy every day.




When you need someone to talk to or a shoulder to cry on, when you find things are hard you the best thing that has ever happened to me in my life. 




And I thank you for this I will always make sure you get your every wish, Layla Rose you my world you my everything. 




You the dream I was wishing for my one and only everything, from today and tomorrow and for the rest of my life. 




Me and mummy will always be by your side, So with this I just want to say thank you for the love you have brought into our life’s.




We both wake up every morning with a smile on our face.




Jidos Reality 9.7.12

You are the Ink to my Pen the anger to my pad, you the reason I sit here and let my imagination write when I’m sad. 




I want to Rip out every hear beat that comes out that feels bad, lock it up in a room and label it mad.




You make me shout out loud but there’s no sound, this feelings so bad its eating away at me slowly it makes me feel sad.




I have no more Tears to cry i wonder why? I’m left all Alone to climb these walls as far as I can. 



But the faster I try the slower I get as weakness grabs my hand Suicide grabs my Thoughts and makes me feel less like a man. 




Takes all my control from me and makes me feel weak like a lamb, locked in a dark room close my eyes as my Emotions are all chained to this Weak Broken Lamb .


The angers eating away my Heart skips a Beat everyday as it watchers my smile fading away. 




The light in my heart is fading away everyday it’s so sad, I hope to live to see another day so ill now sit down and pray. 




Jidos Reality 13.10.12

It’s Story Telling and a good night to you Baby Girl close your eyes and let Daddy make your imagination grow. 
 



This is for you just to let you know how much I miss you time always traps me when you speak. 
 
My sense of Listening starts to think as I see.


The imagination from each word you creating makes me feel a memory like a feather so soft from an Angel it came to me. 
 



Makes me want to take your Heart and keep it close next to me, you the Life to my heart your smile always takes over of me. 
 



The way you look into my eyes as your love takes hold of me, your world is my oyster you the only pearl my eyes see. 
 



You the angel in my Dreams the heart beat I always feel, the light that you shine in my life sets me free. 




It’s amazing the way I feel when you wrap your warm angel wings around me, its Story Telling Baby girl I had to let you know what you mean to me. 
 




You my everything you my world you the heart beat to my life you the smile that makes me breathe all the time. 



Jidos Reality 15.10.12

Never let it go as long as you know you unique, there’s only one of you that the world can see.




Your Soul is Peaceful like a cold summers breeze, your words are like a Sun Set to my eyes so sweet. 




Your Smile is locked away deep in my Heart as it beats, when someone feels lost you always there to help them breathe.




You Trust comes at no cost your Characters build on honesty, you get rid of all the tears from my eyes as they think.




You open You’re Heart and set you Laughter free, every star that shines at night is a memory you have given to me.




You the missing piece to my puzzle you make my world feel complete, time always seems to pause like a rivers stream. 




Like the Blue Sky above you the cloud that shades me Never let it go I see Paradise by your feet.




The Sweet smell of Roses makes my body rush as I breathe; you always got a Twinkle in your eye as your imagination take hold of me. 




You make every word on this page come out and speak, never let it go you’ll always be my everything.



Jidos Reality 21.10.12

Should you ever leave! he’ll become a Homeless man broken and cold on the street, his Dreams will run away as far away from him as they can be.




His Lonely Soul would try to find a way through his torched mind as his memories slowly eat away at him.




His heart was Crumbling the more he prayed for his Smile to come and save him, his Destiny was lost in a Shadow with many tears Lost in Dreams whispering to him. 




Isolated from the world his Hour Glass would never set him free, Everyday was a battle as his Nightmares took hold of him.




Death wouldn’t even wait around the corner to come and save him his life is now filled with Misery and cold pain from deep-within. 




Silence was not a wish that held the key to his destiny, his Smile made no sound as his tears would start to scream.




Should you ever leave you’ll take away everything that’s close to him.




Jidos Reality 15.10.12

I’m back I take a word and make it smile if I’m angry I take it and make it cry, there’s not much you can do with your stress to hate me. 




My World is in a Bubble far away were you could never get me, every morning I wake up and Thank my Thoughts for this blessing. 




My hearts calm as a Snowman with each heart beat catching me when I’m falling, I’m always Smiling Laughing loud because I’m breathing.




It’s Amazing what my eyes see in the Mirror when I’m looking, a world that’s not numb only days that are filled with fun.




Where Peace overtakes all my emotions that try to run, were Birds are always singing under the Beauty of the sun. 




The Dark Night come alive as all the Starts become one .Fairies and Angels catching all my dreams that try to bring harm. 




I closed a door and never looked back I left the Past to rot, The future holds the dream to the wish I’ve been waiting for.




Jidos Reality 16.10.12

It’s time for you all to understand! I hate the past but am happy because it came and turned me into a man. 




Made me who I am today and yes I had to learn the hard way, that’s why I Write what I feel hard to say. 




The Hour Glass has now turned as the Sand falls there are lessons learned that we should be told. 




Every Past has a Beginning and every beginning has an end, every day brings new meaning to every decision I have made.




I take My Medication everyday so I don’t go insane, I’ve learned how to put a smile on my face every time I don’t feel okay. 




Sometimes I sit in the Corner and cry my eyes out all day, a smile is all I need Happiness is what I crave. 




It’s the only thing in this life that I wish for everyday, I’ve stopped and I’ve thought about it all I can do now is get on my knees and pray. 




It’s time now I’m ready to show the world what I got to say, this is “Jidos Reality” hope you like what I got to say.




Jidos Reality 25.10.11

I’m defining every Word that has ever been Spoken I’m rearranging every line that I wrote that feels Broken. 




I’ll be causing a stir bringing Thunder Storms to this ocean, show you this Mirror you looking at this Reflection ain’t broken.




It’s been put together like a Puzzle Piece it always fits, It’s stronger now more than ever I’ve never felt even better. 




The Meaning to the words that I Write always speak, they will either make you Smile or Cry or make you Think. 



There was a Time in my Life when I was broken and I was weak, I was Locked in a Padded Cell were only silence used to speak. 




It used to tell me and make me wonder about the things that I did, the Madness the Sadness all the Happiness that I missed. 




And now I’m happy because the madness has made me Write Poetry! that’s so deep, It comes from the Heart I can only tell the truth it’s just how it is.




Jidos Reality 20.10.11

This amazing feeling of Self Control has me looking at my shopping list away I go, Don’t be Shocked if you ask me and I say no.




If you don’t do anything for me I don’t really want to know, if you ain’t got the Respect to respect me I think you should go. 




Why do you judge a book by its cover? When the first chapter is labelled do you know? My life ain’t a “Punch and Judy” show.




Were you can tell me where to go or tell me what to say, you can try to control me with you Puppet Strings but you will fail. 




I remember when people were around you would always try to bring me down, always try to make them laugh and point fingers at this Silly Clown. 




And when I cried it was the best feeling you ever had, always comparing what you had to what I never had. 




Now I think about it you were very Lonely always Sad Now you wish you had the talent I have! Here’s a Pen and Pad.


You will always be a little bully and nothing else, I’ve got self control and I’m happy because you will never ever make me sad. 




Jidos Reality 13.10.11

What you mean to me is a world I never forget about, when I think of you is a dream I’ve always wished about.



I think you **** and Lovely your smile gets me hypnotised it gets me Tingling and felling  makes my Heart want you to be mine.





I want to be the reason you smile and hold you tight when you cry, and let you know not to worry everything will be alright.



You Amazing you Lovely you Beautiful and ****, you got a heart of gold, may all the Angels give you all they blessings.




I’m falling In Love with you and I just got to tell you, you smile your laughter tour touch your kiss your star singes so deep.




From your style to the way you say my name when you look deep into my eyes,why? R? U? Insane? what you mean to me is a world that means loads to my heart.




Jidos Reality 19.5.12

He looks as he Blinks see his eyes see what he sees! It stimulates his brain like he’s Medically Insane psychologically he’ll never be the same. 



Many veins with different story’s scratching away at his brain, He’s gone way past depression as his personality slips away.




Mind tricks every time he thinks his medication will make him feel okay, It makes him go more crazy the more he tries to remember his name.



Every blink leaves a mark with a scar on his heart, his trapped in a Cold long room that’s filled with stairs that seem to go no were don't stare!




His down on his knees as he looks and sees his life scatter everywhere, getting lost by the cold sound of weakness in his head. 



His words don’t want to speak as his Anger Screams at him, Time was never on his side his Reflection tried to hide.




In a deep dark hole were broken souls wouldn’t even go, a broken memory with a heart that was cold. 




Addicted to the pain the past is all he knows, he lost the key to his future his eyes only showed him what he saw. 




Jidos Reality 18.10.12

If only I told you what you mean to me, it’s been three years and you still mean loads to me. 




I love the way you walk and the way you talk, you always seem to find away to make me smile. 




I want to hold you and cuddle you every morning and all night, It’s been a long time sometimes I feel like I want to cry. 




We talk for hours on the phone every day and every time we speak you tell me everything will be alright. 




I should of stopped and listened to the words that come out of your mouth, I thought I knew what to do, but by thinking that I was hurting you.




I became friends with the bottle the more I poured a sip it made me feel hollow, I slowly threw away the love we had build our trust was getting swallowed.




Our arguments always used to echo if only I told you my life was perfect because of you, so complete because you needed me like I needed you.




I’m sorry for ever hurting you.




Jidos Reality 20.10.12

As my Mind Twists and turns deep with-in inside, my Broken soul has no were to run away and hide. 




From all these Fears my Tears create from running down my eyes, if only I was taught how to laugh than maybe these tears would be a memory I’ll never ever want to be lost.




I’m scared of loneliness I’ve got no one there to love my heart, I don’t even have a birthday wish or my name on any ones Christmas card. 




I’ve Lost everything everyone I’ve ever loved; I took for granted everything they did for me back in the past.




The future holds nothing for me but Pain trapping me in the dark, My poor souls crying out can you help me because I’m lost,can you fill the emptiness that I’m feeling in my heart.




I just want it to stop I don’t want it to rot; I don’t want it to take away the little happiness I have left in my heart.


Because if it’s taken away it will be gone it will be lost. 

It will never come back to my Broken Beating Heart.


I hope you like my honesty I just didn’t know where to start. 

I’m only looking for Love that thing that Protects and always warms up your heart. 




Jidos Reality 13.10.11

Why do you think you running around collecting “Stars” filling many jars up with your heart?




Hiding behind your fake smile this illusion will have to stop, falling down a dark hole the more your love has to starve.




It’s lost like the night were there’s no full moon to show you light, your heart doesn’t beat it’s filled with lies that want to fight.




Destroying everything in peoples life’s that are right, You twisted and scared your heart is as dark as the shadow by your side. 




Your smile is so sad it tells me a story that’s from hell, were fire always burns and hatred turns and lives in your veins. 




Pain whispers words that make you sick, the faster you fall the deeper you think sometimes you need to stop and face the truth when it speaks.




Open your ears and set all you emotions free find the key that you lost and open up your destiny.




Don’t let hate take over you or all the lies control you something isn’t right, every night I’ll pray for you. 




Jidos Reality 21.10.12

You so boring every time I hear you speak, the words and the emotions you show on this page are never deep.




They never seem to make this tear cry and make it speak, it don’t make any sense what you write it sounds like a lie. 




There’s no feeling of compassion to bring life to your poetry that you write, I wish you understood that poetry is another life. 




A world where you cannot speak but you gifted enough to show them you can write something for someone that’s unique. 




That every time they read it to say I’m sorry ain’t as hard as it seems, Your words have no meaning have no story to what I think. 




See when I read your poetry it makes me tired I want to sleep, but I respect you for what you write about what you think when your eyes blink. 




As your words try to scream listen when I’m talking just let it in, It has always been a beautiful piece of poetry to be boring is truly unique.




Jidos Reality 22.2.2012

Time cannot be measured by the Days that you have experienced, you cannot fear the Future when the Past is almost near. 




This second will be a minute what an hour another year, another day gone just listen cant you hear. 




Today felt just like yesterday could it be like a different day? Maybe today will bring more Meaning to everything that I say.




When a Breath is taken another blink is created another world a different sound will be created, another story this chapter is re-created. 




This memory is exploited different days that have taught us the Truth will always stalk us. 




When you lie behind the truth it will always stare you in the face, the Mirror never lies it will always tell a story that has to be played. 




Always takes you back to that memory that u want replaced.Smiles and Tears all have one thing in common they expressions that only ever show up on your face.




Jidos Reality 12.10.11

Because now I’m fantastic living in a glass dream, so say that I got another day Hours and Minutes all come in a very different way.




Suicidal thoughts rushing should I cut my writs today? Will it Hurt when I feel my veins exploding filled with pain?




The sharp knife on my cold skin makes me start to believe, my heart is as cold as the shadow the follows me. 




It has no meaning to the sounds that I scream, my paranoid sense bites away at my finger nails as it thinks.




My soul is confused as it lives this misery, death is round the corner smiling as it thinks.


Every tear that I cry take away a little bit of me. 

My eyes have no Light only dark memories that have stayed with me, I’m searching for the truth as this knife starts calling me. 




I’m lost in a Glass Dream with many mirrors staring at me.A Cold Whisper in the wind comes along to remind me. 

Because I’m fantastic this dream is not a world that was meant for me.




Jidos Reality 1.11.12