Family what a lovely looking tree, amazing how it makes you feel deep with-in.

You can always turn to some one for some help solving a problem. You laugh you cry! Family are your guardian you are they angel.

They teach you how to walk and talk with respect, they cuddle you when you need it and leave you with that warm fuzzy feeling.

Your birthdays are always special, balloons and cake for you to remember. Blow out the candles and make a wish for something special.

But sometimes family can be the worst thing in your life, you never saw it coming now your family has disowned you.

They don't appreciate your pleasure or the love been in your life, it's against all they tought you, they feel like you've let them down.

No mama or pappa Get out from our house! there's no food in ya cupboard, no water to bath or shower. Your brothers drug habit causes such madness. 

But his family still has time to help him. Your family tree is broken and cold you never did drugs or caused madness Oh No.

But family have chossern to love who they want depending on the day if you lucky you might get a smile that's been searching for ya soul.

JidosReality 3.3.14

Death was waiting for it's finger nails to grow long, so it could grab him in the back and drag him into another world were all it's secrets lived.

His double life was catching up.

All his lies had to stop, his demons would never leave him turning his smile into something evil.

To sacrifice he would never think twice. His black book was filled with secret rituals to  conjure many different demons that were blood thirsty.    

In the morning whilst we were sleeping, he was awake feeding demons plotting and scheming.

His food was always special it was blessed from Hell with a message from Satan.

With words he had to speak to take control of what we think, from a smokeless fire to what the snake desired.

He would make sure your soul was promised to those that come from the fire. To him *** was never pleasure! 

It was this way to show the demons that they had his blessing. He would take your soul and slowly live off it.

Sit back and watch your whole world crumbling. The more souls he takes the stronger he begins to hate.

There's not a twinkle when you look into his eyes, it's the evil that scares ya at night.

He was consumed by guilt at power, the angel of death is coming even if he tries to run away faster.

JidosReality 24.4.14

You will always be judged!

You will always be judged by the blind leading the drunks. By the sad sad days stumbling around the house.

Shouting and screaming, tearing all those thoughts out. Saying things you never ever thought you dreamed about.

Shouting out words that are filled with anger when you only whisper to you self.

No one hears they all tired of the bottle causing problems. They don't see that you try to drink all your memories away. 

The alcohol understands all the pain and the rage, they never drink! But qweek to judge when your heart stops showing love.

All the shouting and rumbling questions searching for answers that lead to something.

What once was a habit is now an addition, you've become an addict. You will always be judged by the blind leading the drunks.

JidosReality 24.1.14

My reflection looked at me with no life in it's eyes. It put it's hand out the mirror and grabbed me by the throat, and pulled me inside into it's world on the other side.

It was like standing in the dark watching my own shadow cry. My thoughts were all screaming! Crushing me as I tried to stop thinking.

My anger turns into rage. No laughter on my reflections face, sadness has taken over happiness has lost it's place.

So cold in a world were the sun shines all day, were the stars always shine every night they shine so bright.

As I look and wonder? Why my shadow cry's it makes me numb. My destiny has been chosen death will have to come.

A voice starts to whisper you won't be missed, you were never loved. Take these pills an cut your wrists.

Your life has no meaning, once you dead you can stop screaming. Don't be afraid of the other world were broken souls and tears have to go.

A place were there's no reflection and many mirrors waiting to watch you waiting. 

All your problems seem to be lost, and your thoughts no longer rot. Your heart will never beat and crave love from deep with-in. 

My shadow doesn't speak it stands there as silent as the darkness all around me.

JidosReality 24.1.14

Dint stand on me my life's filled with wild flowers. You know nothing about it! Iv been to Hell and back I can show you vouchers.

That's why I write poems that are filled with broken bottles. Today felt like a silent picture searching for some colour in it's world.

I hold onto the old willow tree, but it's shade is Oh so cold! I let go and the wind takes me to a place were silence grows.

A place were screaming has loads of meaning, every sound screaming and searching.

Where your heart will never love, because hate will make it starve. I try to run to find somewhere to hide!

But when I hide my eyes start to cry, my tears think but they thoughts are deep.

Sadness comes along and takes hold of me, so don't stand on me take a look at the picture painted for me.

JidosReality 24.1.13

Reality is the only dream I live in, I've stopped searching for the clues to the life of my destiny. 

I feel left all alone as cold as a stone that's covered by snow. Today felt like a silent picture searching for sone colour in it's world.

The ones that I trust are only happy when I hurt, I fought all my demons by my self when I was been kicked lying there in the dirt.

This picture was painted by an artist with a broken brush that had no thirst. It's colours were as dim as a fire fly been swallowed by the mist.

The road in this picture leads to a dark place were silence lives. Were screams feed the heart beat life that makes it hurt.

Were pain will not go! It gets deeper as your tears only make it grow. The trees have no leafs! Only branches filled with lost memories that twist.

The rain drops are cold, the wind seems to whisper shhhhhhh! Like it knows. It wonders and moves around this picture with no were to go.

The moon is dim it's light has run away from the night, taking away all the stars that shine bright, because they happiness never felt right.

Come with me into this picture that's so cold.

JidosReality 4.4.13

A new baby is like the beginning of all things wonder hope, a dream of possibilities we all grow to know. A new life so sweet oh wat a perfect soul.


Love not complicated smiling before we think it. A soul so peaceful it brings tears to my eyes knowing that one day this soul will be broken.


Tarnished into many pieces dark secrets lost in the decisions. From a cute little baby who's heart beats love whose eyes shine brighter than the scars.


Skin so soft a delicate Rose that cant be lost. To a cold heart beating anger and pain personalities switching places depending on the lie of the day.


We all wait for time looking at the clocks hoping the life to come will bring happiness to our hearts. How you going to hold the life you created in your palms? Keep it safe in a nice warm place?


You say it's the beginning of something new, still making the same mistakes blaming everyone else but you? It's a sad sad situation I was a lovely baby so cuddly so cute chubby cheeks little Afro looking good.


Wat happened to that baby? Where was everyone that always said we care for him? They left it all alone on a silent dusty road, now my life's been one big Bus stop no were to go.


JidosReality 24.7.15