Scars all over my face on my hands on my knees, they all over the place each one brought alive with a different story to tell.

Some have been an Accident others have put me through Hell.
The situation was never easy been in a place where greed was envy.

Watching your friends turn into enemy’s, using you as the bate like Sharks circling around patiently waiting.

The Scars. On my fists remind me of the walls I used to hit, when the world made Me Angry it made me think it hatted me.

My hands would hurt with pain as all the Hate Rushed through me; the Scars on my face were from a story book that lost a page.

I felt like A Drunk I couldn’t stand like a man, I was angry at the Bottle so I picked it up and smashed my face.

The Scars on My Lip were broken and confused, the Scars on My back had me used and abused.

The Scars on My Legs had lost many friends; tattoos all over my body to hide the Scars that make me feel sorry.

Every one with a story to tell all over my body.

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With My Hands on my Head my head to the pillow the pains so deep like a Cold Winters Willow.

In my mind I’m a fighter My Hearts the lighter my soul sparks it up like a fluid lighter.

This Poem Isn’t for you it’s for me Reality is Twisted it will never set you free, a poet suffering with arthritis for every word spoken an emotion starts to think.

And brings out everything at the moment that I think, I’ll be self-destructing mind blowing crushing Poetry searching because they never saw what I could see.

My Pen. wasn’t lazy it learned lessons from the words it had created, it gets a “Rush” every time my hand picks it up to Create Poetry from the heart.

It has a life of its own every Letter picks it’s Poem, every Word has a Sound that the pen helps bring out.

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Does Your Shadow have a Reflection? Is a question that gets you guessing!

Could it be alive the only one thing that has never left you.

See the day you know your Time is Over is the day when you turn around and take a look over your shoulder.

As your eyes start to see your Shocked Heart starts to beat slower, Polaroid pictures capturing a Silent World, caught in a moment.

Thoughts watching and pacing Pausing Time as it’s created, no Mirrors for your Reflection see it’s about to be taken.

No mistaken it’s true Your Shadows ready to leave you and trade places with Your Eyes and stand there and watch you.

As you Wonder and Think and feel every Memory that Speaks your body gets cold your heart beats away slow.

Every beat is a step running around trying to capture Tears in your head.

You Shadow shows you why it never spoke or touched you.

Your Reflection was the only face that its mirror ever knew.

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Twin type of lines they see a Pen and start writing, creating many Words that letters come out rushing.

Holding onto your Imagination this pen is alive Heart Beat Blushing, Depression touched it, could you ever trust it?

As My Eyes watched your whole world fade away, like a Mirage in a desert, sand games the sun would play.

Blue skies with no Stars small trees searching for shade, I’m as nerves as a Tear Drop that’s about to be caught by a smile.

My stomach is filled with Butterfly’s that have no were to hide, I’m shacking like a cloud that’s filled with Thunder, that’s about to bite.

I’m sweating like The Desert in the summer time, that has seen a mirage late at night.

I tell myself to be yourself because everyone is already taken, if words had no meaning and, Letters stopped Speaking.

Reality would fade away into a Lost Dream searching for some meaning.

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I had to write this for you I have to let you know, you always make My Heart Happy but now it’s sad because you got to go.

You picked me up when I was down and showed me how To Smile you always seem to bring life into this Broken Heart of mine.

You truly amazing my Angel you one of a kind, you the happiness to the smile on my face, every time I feel down I close my eyes and remember what you always say.

Don’t worry my friend everything will be okay, and I thank you for this from the bottom of my heart you will always be My Best Mate.

So Good By my good friend till we need another day.

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I want to Scream and need to explode hold my breath and close my eyes, and watch My Thoughts take my soul into this dream that I hold.


Cold pain is the expression my face refuses to show, in This Dream my emotions whisper as my silence screams searching for away out of this cold.


Many memory’s torn apart they beauty would never be told, memory’s as long as story books with No Happy Endings to calm my soul.


This dream is The Reality were my thoughts always remind me, once you lost you can’t be found.


It’s heart had No Beat it’s as cold as the winters kiss, it makes your body shake and pulls the life out of it every day.


Your thoughts are now against you.You Scream and Shout but the words are always empty.


My eyes see pain and suffering all this Trusting has lead to nothing.


This Dream is my reality it’s as alive as the world my eyes see.


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Depression Took Him somewhere to a place were his thoughts lived and spoke the truth.


Locked away in A Dark and lonely room, with no windows to look out at the lovely sight of the only full moon.


The Heart Beat of the Earth starts to show it’s rainbow, hiding with Fairies and pixie dust, when magic is created a life is born.


Sweet Smiles and cold Tears till we die, only the memory keeps ones name alive, you Pop a Pill when you have a head ache, I pop a pill to Keep me Sane.


See this brain can not think for it’s self it needs some help, it’s Trapped in a word of Depression all by its self.


Doctors and Therapists try to figure it out, but the deeper they go the more this Depression comes out.


Is it time to give up or should I stand up and shout, take this situation and create it into a laugh that’s so loud.


Depletion took him somewhere were he would never feel proud.


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