Beyond the moon and the stars,
Over the horizon,
Piercingly silent was a crash.
No one knew what it was.
Sinful or sacred?
Sane or insane?
They told me to choose my own adventure,
But told me it best not be with you.
You held me underwater
And I held you up on a pedestal.
The dangerous cocktail was brewing from the start.
We pushed and provoked,
I was kicking and screaming all along
You suffered oh so silently,
Like a bomb waiting to explode.
But all I wanted was you.
And you would not deny me that.
So vulnerable was I
So understanding were you
And you hacked the motherboard of my emotions.
My mind would say,
"Abandon ship!"
But my heart loved you more.
The lust, the sweat, the lies
Tangled in between sheets
And empty promises were left there,
Running from our mouths before we could catch them.
I showed you my heart
As the real me seeped through my pores
You kept yourself discrete.
That is, until you were angry.
I knew goodbye was coming,
But every time, it was not for real.
We would break up and then lust
And do things we could not take back.
Then forgiveness became my torturer.
The death of us was near.
It became a game,
Our sick little game.
We would poke each other to see
Who could cut the deepest
Without leaving a mark, a scar
Or any permanent damage.
But we can only play for so long.
Our final kiss, touch, ****
Did not come easily.
I could not bring myself to say goodbye.
I fought, but it was not enough.
You held on, but it was not strong enough.
So we let each other drift away.
A violent affair, stained red.
A love war, tainted with arsenic.
An emotional battle, like the tip of a needle
It came and touched my heart.
Beyond the moon and the stars,
Over the horizon,
Piercingly silent was a crash.
It was my pain, my curse, my love.