scrolling through three different social media websites,
and hitting refresh for hours until there's nothing left to see
it's listening to music and forgetting the passage of time
it's being unable to sleep at four in the morning
it's waking up in the afternoon with a headache
and feeling empty,
because you had a dream that you weren’t alone
but when you woke up, there was no one there
it’s asking yourself constantly
if anyone would notice if you disappeared
it’s forgetting that you’re real, and true,
and you have needs, too
it’s january, after the holidays have passed
and the decorations have come down and the magic is lost
it's knowing you have so much you need to do,
so much you want to do,
but can't find the motivation to do it
it's losing your passion
it's walking through hallways but feeling like you're not there
it's trying to convince yourself
"there's nothing wrong with me"
it's going about the same routine,
over, and
over, and
over, again.
sleep,
wake up,
and then go to sleep again.