me? well, I'm doing better
and sometimes I miss the weather
back there on the coast
but I don't miss wishing the doctor would up my dose
I've opened the blinds in my mind and let in the sun
now there's flowers growing in my brain and I value each and every one
the other side of the country served me well
the only thing it lacks is that saltwater smell
but I'm doing better now
and everyone I knew can tell
I am no longer the gravel in the cuts on my own knees
and every day doesn't end in desperate pleas
it's funny where the lighthouse isn't is where I was found
but I'm doing better now
I'm rooted now like the trees
I'm in love with him
but more importantly I'm in love with me
I finally let go of the wear and the tear
to prove it I cut off all my hair
it was a vow
and I'm doing better now
it took being wine drunk singing All The Small Things in a basement with all my friends
to realize that this isn't the end
and that I don't want to die
because I've never been more alive
and maybe this sadness was never poetic or profound
maybe that's why I'm doing better now