Beautiful lies,
Easy life
tell me,
how do you live?
Through a twisted view?
Drugs through the naked veins?
Kisses through venomous dreams.
Beautiful girl whats wrong?
so many faces forgotten places.
don't listen to their words
ignore the worst
you will survive,
you always do
every thought in your head
run from what you don't understand
just take his hand
don't look back
shatter your brutal walls of ice and pain
just let him love you,
yes its difficult,
his words are like drugs soothing every wound inside
you get the feeling and urge to just drown in his arms every night
beautiful girl... i think you have found the one,
stay this time.
Don't ever leave

first i smoke a leaf
have that sweet feeling of relief
smoke my smoke, now take another ****
quickly the rooms filling with smoke
long laughs, cute giggles load another bowl
puff puff puff
hearts racing eyes red
millions of thoughts going threw my head
room spinning out of control adrenaline pumping
roll roll roll my joint
haha get the point?
**** hit after **** hit
yo bro you gotta hit this
up up up in smoke we go

Cancer doesn't discriminate
Cancer doesn't care if your only 38
The day i found out you had cancer was heartbreaking
We prayed, We cried..
When you are weak
I will be strong
you will never be alone
I will never let you go
When you cry
I will be right there with you
I love you mommy
it took 3 years but guess what,
all the pain and stuff you went through to cure it worked
Marijuana cured you more than the chemo
you came home and told me you were in remission
I was me the most happiest thankful girls in the world
We are stronger and can take on anything that comes our way

Life is not always easy
Was it meant to be?
I don't know anymore.
When you left my heart was like an empty drawer
how you made me feel I don't even know,
you cheated on me because I wouldn't blow.
I was blinded by your words
when I thought of you I thought of the dove
you know the one I thought was love.
it only was pain
you left me plain
my heart now has never ending hurt because of you
you ripped the poor thing in two
that is not even half of how I feel,
but that is where it ends, I want to heal.

I'm sorry I can't do this anymore.
I'm not your own little personal *****.

You can't just use me then leave me in the dust.
Its worse than a drug bust.

The pain is bad.
Everything just makes me sad.

Why would you do this to me?
Did I hurt you if so tell me how please.

I gave you almost everything I had...
The thing I didn't fully give you is not bad...

It might not have been everything you wanted.
Well now the memory is haunted.

I think about it everyday,
I tried okay?

You told me you loved me,
Well that was a lie don't you see?

You said it while drunk,
Now to me you are a piece of junk.

You broke your promise to me.
You said you would never hurt me an you'd let me be free.

Well thats a lie,
Goodbye(:

you make me the happiest girl
with u i feel like i own the world
its crazy how much i love u
do u love me this much too?
i miss u every second u r not here
when im not with u i grab another beer
i make the time pass by writing
when im not with u my heart is hiding
u always can make me smile
when i see u my heart races mile after mile
i love you babe
every memory i save
im happy we r together
i wanna be with u forever. <3

Since we parted Ive been a mess..
No one else can see it except myself..
They all hate you...
For some reason i don't mind you...
I had tried everything to forget you
I eventually just gave up
Its like you put yourself there purposely for me to never forget..
I don't know why things happened this way
We never had bad problems till that last day..
The last day we were together you broke everything..
My trust in you, hope for us, happiness for us, and my heart..
If you cared in the first place you wouldn't have done that..
Yet you still try to talk as if none of it ever happened..
I don't know how you can do that..
You stopped all the drugs you were doing back in those days..
Sometimes i think of how happy we used to be...
I wish we still had that little sparkle in our eyes
The look of excitement every time we would see each other ..
I will be seeing you shortly for the first time in about 5 months..
We will see where that leads..
Everyone's telling me don't meet up with you
Truth is...i want to be in your arms again...
I would feel no fear with you
You are trying to prove yourself to me
I am willing to accept you back in my life again
There is no love stronger than our forbidden love...

im not perfect, so what to bad
don't like it? so sad.
i don't care, i love him
in my eyes he is a heavenly sin.
i never want him gone
i would forgive him if he did something wrong
maybe not right then and there
i would eventually because i care

why would you lie..
this pain you left wont die...
how could you do this to me?
with you i felt so free..
i just hope your happy now honey
to you is all this funny?
i bet it is
thank you for all of this
this pain this ache the hurt
now all my trust for everyone is burnt
im done thinking you could ever change
thanks to you i will never be the same
because of you my heart is past broken
im done with the hoping
ive given you chances but you let me down
forget it im done..

So you say you love me
You used me abused my heart and lied your way threw life
but even through the pain you have put me threw
you know why it hurts so much?
because you say you love me
i loved you more than words could ever explain no matter what happend or who got in our way
i was your bonnie and you were my clyde
you shot down but i am still alive
i get up and walk
so you say you love me
even you don't know why you do the things you do
people say I am stupid for ever loving and caring about you
one day you will become a better man and i will be a better woman
separately we will conquer whatever life throws at us

The way his arms caress me at night,
The way he looks at me when i wake,
His eyes and smile are so bright,
Its my sunshine to every step i take.

His hand in mine,
Together we are unseperable,
When I am with him my rainy day starts to shine,
Without you my life would be dull and unbearable.

The day we met I was hooked,
I gave him one look and knew he was the one,
I'll never forget how happy we looked,
To this day we care for each other a ton.

I will always be yours,
He has my heart in his hands,
I have his of course,
When something goes wrong he always understands.

When I see you, those butterflies flutter,
My heart shines through the pain,
When I tell you a story I mix up my words and stutter,
I get lost in those blue eyes and forget what I was saying.

You can make me smile with a single hug,
When you look into my eyes I know I am doing something right,
You are my drug,
We knew it from first sight.

The first time I seen you there was something special about you,
You gave my heart a spark
I am happier than ever been, its true
Slowly you are bringing my heart and soul out of the dark..

You were taken from this world way to soon,
If heaven wasn't so far I would be in your arms every day,
I miss you with all my heart and soul
we used to fourwheel and run threw the mud together,
I thought we would be forever,
when I found out that you were gone I broke,
Couldn't and wouldn't speak just tears went down this girls face,
Didn't ever think this would happen so soon and so fast,
that drunk driver should be where you are instead,
God works in dumb ways he takes the good people leaves the bad,
Makes me wonder are you even real because I am starting to think not,
I love and miss you with all my heart Montana,
Without you babe I don't understand anything anymore,
I wish I could see you just one last time..

Sincerely, your love Jessie..<3