You can't be friends
with someone you
used to
****

I've made it worse for everyone,
but mostly just myself.
The un-needed stress that I have done
it isn't good for my health.

I grasp for some certainty
growing more desperate by the minute
I wonder why, for the life of me,
it ever felt like I wasn't in it.

I am here now, love
I am ready to prove
my love for you is enough
I know it's the right move

I never meant to make you unsure
maybe timing just isn't my thing.
Promise to always forgive me, lover,
whenever I test your dear being.

If you were here beside me now
you would see how much I tremble
to know I ******* things up somehow,
worried sick that things could crumble.

Blame it on my sick need
to hear your voice all the time
I know I'm a mess indeed
but no matter what, you're mine.

My love is like the wind;
You drift away from me.
And our love has yet to begin,
At least that's how it seems.

My love is like the wind;
With you I never win.
But with you in my hair,
And you everywhere,
That's how it's always been.

That feeling of too many thoughts in my head
That sound of too many things that were said
That boy with too many feelings on a thread
That moment of too many loves in a bed

This feeling of too little thoughts shared
This sound of too little people who cared
This boy with too little that made him scared
This moment of too little plans unprepared

I looked around and saw
nobody
I closed my eyes and saw
you

My clothes don't fit right anymore
I'm not meant to play this part anymore
It's time to find a new home to explore
It's time to close the book and shut the door

Seeking answers, I look at the sky
But stars are falling right out of the sky
With you gone, I can't help but ask why
The stars fall down without saying goodbye

I wonder if you still think of me
But she can play this part better than me
When I close my eyes it's you I still see
When I reach out in bed your spot is empty

How did it feel
to be so close to
civilization
yet so far away?

They say
writers write with words
poets paint with them.

I'll miss your grey shirt
for no reason at all
The baseball field where we kissed
I think in the fall

On a day like this
not too long ago
skin touched fingertips
but worry takes control
I worried
I'm sorry

No you don't know
you'll never know

I'll miss that hello romance night
where it first began
Remember my happy dance
well I'll never dance again

When you put flowers in my hair
you kissed me like there was no air
now my tears are just everywhere

It fell apart
I'm to blame
time to depart
say my name

Whisper it slow
I don't want to go
and for no reason at all
it really hurts to fall
when you're on your own

Finish each other's sentences
and I'll finish you for dinner.

Where is the cross you would wear around your neck?

I lie and tell myself that you were nothing special

This song is so two years ago
And this feeling is six months early
But here we are, dancing,
Because this moment is right now.

Why can't somebody tell me
"I'm sorry that he's dead."

"How does it feel..."
I wouldn't know
I cannot feel

The words in your journals...
the thoughts in my head.

This is free
Writing me
As much as
This is me
Writing free