I write better
when I can scribble and scratch
eradicate and erase
in a notebook
you can smell the pages and
the words become tangible and touchable

I need to stop creating all my poems on my **** phone
it's so impersonal

Red signs and white lines.
My favorite pastimes
include turning it up
watching it go
thinking it out
and soaking it in.
Blue skies and blue eyes.

I was "asleep"
and the only thing that connected us
was the ****** phone connection.
I was "sleeping"
and we were both comforted by the fact
that we could almost hear the other breathing
at the other end.
I was "asleep"
and you didn't realize that I heard every word
when you lowered your voice and said into the static
*"I don't think I've ever loved anything as much as I love you."

My devotions
are the hours in the nights
where I scribble in my notebook.
My prayers
are my journal entries
where I plead for sanity in my life.
My worship
is spending hours in an old bookstore
where I wish to leave with every book I come across.
My redemption
is when I compose a few poems
where all of my peers are left appalled and pleased.

Writing
is the only form of religion I know.

Just because I don't believe
Doesn't mean I don't understand
Why some people do
We don't agree on some things
But it's okay
Humans were made for community
We can still be friends
I still want to be friends
Sometimes I think about
What the world would be like
If everyone based their lives
And their morals
On just one word
Not "God"
But "Love."

I watched my friends, dear and deserving,
live the best days of their youthful lives
not as expected exactly, but
still glorious and grand.
and
From the sidelines,
I watched my friends live
wondering all the while
why the ****
do I not deserve
to do the same.
*It's just such a shame.