i fell in love with a boy who'd never grow up

even when
his chin grew whiskers
that tickled my face as he kissed me
even when
his hands calloused and weathered
as he strummed songs about change and caressed me
even when
he held me in his arms
and shook with ecstasy

he wouldn't grow up
and he's never grown up

i dreamed
You kissed me
square
in the face
You turned into
a beast
shredding me
open
exposing
the pieces
i had tried
to keep hidden
i cried
‘oh God, why
won’t you save me?’
He laughed,
left me
burned,
ashamed
and You watched
with blind
eyes

In the ebony swirled night, the stars
are alight.
But, you, my dear, are a-glowing
.
Heaven’s angels guard the pearl
white gate, seraph blades showing
.
Hellfire has never burned brighter
but our souls have never been lighter
.
Phantoms waltzing into the light.
But, you my dear aren’t going
.
The trail of your tresses adrift in the
wind.
Keep me afloat, for I am grinning, our
hearts are sinning
.
I will follow you into the dark.

i was once
an esteemed
butterfly catcher
and you were
my iridescent
prize
but i couldn’t
pin
such a
beautiful
specimen
down

Save me
Father
for I am
ashamed
of my ways
but he
laughed

She said;
‘One day you’ll
grow up
and
escape all this
madness,
One day you’ll
find
some happiness’
But i’m still
waiting

i used to play with
fire,
but feeble burns did not
scare
me, so i moved to
metal,
but the scars were not
enough
so now i flirt with
death
and drink her
poison
because i watch you
help
yourself to it every
night.