if
only
you
loved
me
when
you're
sober



too
late
now



the
game
is
o v e r

Oh sweetie
If only you could look in the mirror
And love the reflection
Your beauty is a
Picasso painting of pure perfection
Lift your pretty head up
And straighten your crown
Wear your scars
Like Cinderella wore her gown
Show everyone that smile of yours
Throw away that blade that convinced you
That you had nothing to live for
Go out into the world
And show them what you're made of
The heart of a warrior
And the wings of a dove

You've got a look in your eye that says
Kiss me if you dare
I've never been one to play it safe
So baby, let's take it there
Let's tango for a night
And keep it between us
Two strangers playing with fire
Living for the next high
To give us a rush
Your lips taste of sin
A forbidden indulgence
A treat so good
You could be mr. right
But darlin
You and I both know
This dance was just for one night

2 AM
Sound asleep
My sister beside me
With eyes so sweet
Suddenly
An odd smell
Woke me from my dreams
I pause as I take in
The disastrous scene
Flames all around
Surrounding every exit
I yelled for my mom
Who sounded every bit of desperate
My sister was still unaware of
The danger we were in
If this was the end
I did want her to see it
A few minutes of panicking went by
We were still trapped in the ring of fire
I struggled to find a way out
As the flames grew higher
Suddenly everything went black
And a light flashed before my eyes
There I stood over my body
And that's when I realized
This was no accident
It was a pre-planned tragedy
Our beautiful home was set on fire
By our own mommy and daddy

I'm exhausted and feeble
Anything but gleeful
But money needs to be made
So to work I go to get paid

September 10, 2010
I'm seventeen years old and
Haven't seen my dad since 1996
He has a long history
Of broken promises and false hope
Never one to own up to his mistakes
Forever sliding down the same
Undignified *****
I know he's my father
But he'll always be a liar first
Promising he can heal this relationship
That's far too cursed
Convincing himself that money
Can buy my forgiveness
If he ever told me he loved me
That would be a story for the press
Michael Hill,
You missed your chance
To make up for the past
What a shame
It could have been different
If only you had asked

I'd marry you right now
If you asked me to
I'd share the most intimate part of me
In this moment here with you
Your name is the word I want to say
With my last breath
Your love performed a miracle
And saved my soul from death
You shine in the way
I wish I could
You'll leave behind
The most beautiful legacy
Of a man who lived life
For the ultimate good
Of all the stars you love to look at
You outshine the brightest one
You give off the most picturesque glow
Even greater than the sun
I'd marry you right now
If you asked me to
I've never been more happy
Than in this moment here with you