She frightens me
Her desire for me is haunting
She's controlling and manipulative
She forces me to grant her
Most sickening wishes
I try to resist, but she pulls me back
Refuses to leave until she has me at last
It's scary how she can over power me
She's 5'1 and 110 pounds of fury
She loves seeing me suffer
She laughs at my pain
She ties me up and won't let go until
She's gotten everything she can gain
She's a *** demon
Fired up and ready to go
And I'm held hostage
Forever fearing the dangerous unknown

Intoxicate me
Mesmerize me
Pull me in
Turn me inside out
Make me feel alive
Take my breath away
Kiss me til I'm drunk and
Too numb to speak
Hypnotize my body and
Make it all yours
Every inch of it for you
Take your time and explore

I see your face in the
Shadows of my memory
The moment you decided
You'd rather run away than face your fears
I bet that gun
Gave you the comfort you needed
Just enough push to send you over the edge
To actually pull the trigger
3...2...1...
Your life shot away with one bullet
You just couldn't wait long enough
To see if you would make it through it
The tragedy that is my life
Began the day
And I'll keep living this tragedy
Drinking your memory away

Take me to church
Coz I'm about to sin...

I still remember the day I met you
Like it was yesterday
You sat down at the same table as me
And I was too shy to have anything to say
But as time grew,  so did our friendship
Just 7 year old girls
Taking in the sweet smell of innocence
Then in between
There was some miscommunication
And a friendship was lost
Out of feelings that were mistaken
But a sleepover acted as fate
And gave us a second chance
I'll never forget the time you were too shy
And I made you dance
We ate pizza on the floor and
You were the first one to go to sleep
You snored during the movie and
That will always be a cherished memory
Fast forward 2 short months and
My childhood was gone
I'll never understand it
But God wanted you Home
When you're 10 years old
You think the sleepovers
Will last a lifetime
But those moments are only segments
That we overlook until hindsight
Now your memory lies in a picture of you
In a memorial frame
To me,  
You'll always be the girl
Who made me too shy
To have anything to say

Come back to me dear
Don't get lost in tempation
I know it's easy to lose yourself
In the midst of frustration
But now you've drifted too far
And your spirit has fallen
This interal battle
Is becoming way too common
I listen to you talk and
It's like you're a stranger
It's creating an obstacle and
It's putting us in danger
I just want to see that beautiful smile
Back on your face
Because when you're not okay,  
I'm not okay and in that time
We are words misplaced
Now we're both lost adrift
Wandering the same empty sea
And when you finally find yourself
That's when I'll find me

They say history repeats itself
But I'm not willing to find out
I don't need to meet you again
To know what you're all about
They say time heals all wounds
And it's true
Some scars have faded
But I'll never forget the pain I felt
When you didn't even know
It was my birthday
They say blood is
Thicker than water
But I'm not sure how true
That statement is because
When I needed my daddy's love
The only kiss I got was
That blade on my wrist
They say a father is a
Girl's first love
I wish I could agree
But love doesn't abandon you
At the tender age of three
They say you should
Forgive and forget
And Daddy  I forgive you
But I'm far too damaged to forget