Trying to understand
Trying to believe
That you are still with me

Understand how you feel
Understand where you stand
Now can you understand

I know you cannot change
Not because you cant
But because you choose not to

I am a person you do not see
I wish you could understand
Who can understand me

I let you in
You went too far
I let it go
I see now what a fool I was

You should have never been so close
You should have never taken my heart
It has been smashed apart
I saw it coming and ignored it
I let you take me without hesitation
And you used me to your satisfaction
You destroyed my hope and my happiness
I have never been so happy and so sad in one day
Only you could make it that way

We go about our own lives
In our own secret way
But we fit together somehow
in this grand puzzle of life

Some edges are round
and others are square
but with you in this puzzle
we're breaking new ground

As we think of our tomorrows
and reflect on the past
it will bring us together
through our joys and sorrows

For every turn that you took
and every decision I made
has painted this picture
that is worth a second look

Heart to Heart we're singing
with whispers soft and sweet
like the songs first note
this is just the begining

When there in a drunkin fit
she waits for them to hit
as they storm down the hall
she hides with her dolls

she closes her eyes
as she hear lies lies lies
she feel her heart beat
as she hears the stompping feet

as the floors start to quake
she feels her arms shake
when tomorrow wakes
it will be to late

Why cant I fly
I want to fly away
If a bird can fly
Why cant I?
If a bee can fly
Why cant I?

Why were we not made to fly?
I want to fly so high
I would see my dreams
As they float above the world

I would see the oceans
And fly above the the whales
I would  fly over Africa
And chase a lions tail..

What would you do

Why do you insist on hurting me?
Why must you spread these lies?
Is it to just make you feel better?
At the expense of me
You changed in a worse way
You don’t make me laugh
Or smile when you walk in
You threw me under the bus
Every chance you got
You once would never
Ever bring harm to me
Why have you changed?
Why do you hurt me so?

Deep inside you feel a change?
This urge
This hurt
This sadness
You try to pin point where this pain comes from
But only to find a stronger, more defined pain
It becomes so unbearable
You can no longer move
Then what?
You try to ignore this pain as you look down in shock
only to find a vision of blood
Many things cross your mind but one is most prominent
Fear
Fear for what is happing
What is about to happen and
What just happened

A friend gives hope
when you are low
A friend gives a place
that you can go
A friend is there
honest and true
A friend holds you
when you are blue
A friend will come when you cry
and wipe your eyes
A friend will never
say goodbye

Reaching out
A blinding light
Warmth and comfort
Loving unconditionally
Life holds out a hand

Standing there
Nowhere to turn
No sounds of music
Just whispering voices
Fear holds out a hand

Wanting knowledge
Needing more
Striving for perfection
Craving the elegance
Greed holds out a hand

Voices soft and sweet
A tender touch
Legacies left behind
A heart well given
*Death holds out a hand

Food food i love you so
People say let it go
But what do they know

Food food you make me grow
you're the one that makes me glow
As you can tell its starting to show

Food food i love you so
i will always love you, that i know
no matter where i go

Food food i love you so
food food you may not know
but in my life you play the leading role

My heart yearns for you
My fingers crave you
My mind questions you

My body shakes
My lips ache
As you learn to take

You look within me
And you watch and see
As I fight to be free

You move majestically
Yet meticulously
As not to release me

My body shrieks
I feel so weak
I cannot breath
As I cry
You wipe my eye
With your gentle touch
I start to blush
Our eyes meet
As we fall asleep

Is a dream still a dream when you wake up
and your dream is standing in front of you?
What do you do, do you approach your dream
do you stand and watch it go by
Is a dream still a dream when you wake up
and you smell the same and feel the same as you did in the dream?
Then what, do you shower to change the smells that arise
Or do you stay and hope for change
What do you do when you are approached by a dream
when you know you are awake then what

Why dose the mind work in such a way
That can harm you and bring pain
You try to look away and it pulls you back
You are forced to look and remember
You try so hard to distract yourself
But every little thing you see and hear
Fails to release you from your memory

To quiver within the face
of life only to show
the life giver all goods
in return love is intended
but only recevies punishment
For its life

When love is lost, and lost is love
We stand together as one
But take us down and we will frown
Untill the battle is won

Am i safe?
Safe with whom
Who can say i am safe
Dose safty run away
Dose it want to stay
Who stole my safty

Why do you consume my mind?
What kind of control do you have over me?
Why can’t I just break free?
Why does everything remind me of you?
My heart hurts to see you again
I call and cry to feel your tender touch
I hide my feelings and blush
I hide my heart from the world
Why can’t I have you?
Just to touch you once
To smell you once more
Why do you consume my thoughts?
Why

Wish to be
So free
To fly away
And see
Whats out there
For me