Brused and beaten
Battered and bashed
This is how I look every day
Nobody cares and nobody notices
I cry
my tears are pain as they roll down my face
I walk
Every step as gentle as can be
I looked to you and you were gone
Out of sight
I can't trust
I don't rely on anyone but myself
I fight and I lash
Just to be set free
Away from the pain
Away from the misery
Only to give up hope

you laugh
you play
you make a wish
that ill not delay
ill love you fair
stop and stare
and enjoy time
for life is very short
and gets longer every day

On the water you walk
In the sky you fly
On the ground you crawl
In the trees you perch
You swing your feathers back and forth
And sing the same old song
You chirp it out
Sing the lullaby
As the lambs rest there head
You comfort them
As it's there time to go
Leave this world they may
You have a big role to play

When you walked away you took my heart with you.
You ripped it out and only left me broken peices.
peices that wouldnt fit.
you took the memories of love and hate.
you only leaft me pain.
he tried to fix the peices that you left behind,
but you had the major ones.
he knew dep down that i truely did love you.
you only left me peices.
you lesft me pain.
you left me sorrow
you took my love away
you took my ability to trust

you took my heart when you walked away from me
took took my heart and only left my pain ,my missery,and my sorrow.
but you left me one thing
you left my ability to love
thank you
thank you for leaving

you make me
laugh untill i cry
smile untill i hurt
freeze in my place
stutter when i talk
blush when i fine
trip when i walk
gaze untill im told
dream untill i cant hold you
i wake up in a dash &
run out of the door
when i see you in the hallway
you alway say hi
i was never even wondering
untill a rumer started one day
they told me it would happen
i had not a clue
untill i walked through that door one day
stopped and stared at you
you smiled and said to me
jessica i love you
would you be my girlfriend
because i think your mighty fine
i think your amazing
every day and every night
i looked around and saw everyone staring
from football players to cheerleaders
and even the little league
i couldnt saw i word but my smile said it all
i was stunned as he walked toward me and i thought
lips to lips
arms to arms
bob and weave
this is what i dreamed for
everyday amd every night
i got not what i hoped for but much much more
i still love him
i will see him one day
when god opens my door.

Today.
I came to see you.
You gave me the bottle
You told me to drink it
I chocked it sown
Through agonizing pain
Suffering
I reposed I was drunk
You lured me in
You told me it was fine
I had nod clue
I had to walk into
Walk into the church
With an agonizing head ache
I made my own choices
I chose to suffer

I cry
I sob
I dry my tears for hours
I wish
I dream
I think about what I want
I want you
A guy
A forever
I want you to be him a guy that is mine
I want a forever

You wake in the morning air
You make everything fair
You struggle through the day
Without a word to say
You go home at night
You wait for her there
When she doesn't show
You take it out on me
That's when I leave

I love it when you do what I do
I love to do the same as you
I love when we are weird
I love how I know when your sad
I love when we like the same guy we both don't like him anymore
I love that your my bestfriend because if you went who would be
I love you for always being their
I love we both love one direction
        I love you hales

Blood drains from them
I slit them with a knife
As I try to take my life
I cry
I scream
I yell
And still no body hears me
I suffer
And still no body notices
Im dieing
And still nobody cares

why do i cry
why does it hurt so much
why do you criticize me
why do you judge me
why cant you just leave me alone
why cant you get out

they always dont care
they always dont try
they look at me like im crazy
but theyll never know
they laugh in my face
they call me names
they yell at me
but theyll never know
theyll never be proud
because i try my hardest
im bad because theyll notice me
my parents
arnt gifts they arny my blessings from god
they dont care about me
they never will
my tears run down my bright red cheeks
and make cracks in the dust
because they dont care

they say
that anthing that doesnt **** you
makes you stronger
they say
that if one is evil
the other is good
they say
every heartache makes you stronger
i say i should be invincible

butterflys flutter wildly around the talll bushy blood red flowers
tears are falling every were
prayers are being asked
and being answered
people asking
people giving
for every 100 bad people in the world 10 are good
for every good deed is another bad
for every tall person is a short
for every fight is a blessing
the question im wondering is
is anything really worth it
is life worth it
am i worth it???

the rainbows rise
the sun comes to shine
shine on me
now that im free
ive come to find you
to hold you in my heart
to never release
because when im down
there is no sound
but you
you make the rainbows rise
the sun come to shine
shine on, on me
you make the rain dissapear
and i have no fear
i see the light sparkle sparkle
in your eyes

the summer will shine

why cant i cry without you being the cause
why cant you leave me
dont try and fix your mistakes
you know my name , not my personality
i show you my fake personality so that i can protect my self from you entirley
your not my mom
you can yell
you can critizize
you can call me names
to everyone else yuor a bad ***
to me you are a lowlife trying tom make herself feel better
i find it amuzing
that you think you can hurt me
that you think im crying because i want to be you
weel im not
im crying because you are so jelous
that your trying to replace my mother
one of the only exzact copys of me
well everytime you call me names
you are just hurting yourself
because i know that i am 3 times younger than you
and still the more respnsible mature reliable trustworthy person
and the only thing important is that i know that
so go ahead try to get me
try to make yourself feel better
because every word
every thought
every smirk
makes me the better person
you cant break my heart because i have a shell
a fake personality
only my blood know the real me
the secrets
the things that would crush you
thank you for making me stronger
thank you for being so low that you make a druggy seem sky high
i was only 10 when we met
but now im only 13 and i feel like im thirty
ready
ready to take on the world
im only a kid
but thanks to you im emotionaly a full grown adult
you need a script
but all i need is my mind
i play it real while you are always trying to be plastic
your blood son already hates you
i hate you
the boys hate you
what more do you want
you drove us away
are you really so low as to drive my dad away to
then the only thing you will haVE
IS A DISGUISE
the only thing youll have
is the lies that you tell everyone
your own mother is under your spell
but im not
im free
on my own
go ahead  do it
lie
because i know the truth