when i hear the words i love you it makes my heart beat uncontrollably fast but the question is after my past is it true? will love ever be there truthfully? does anyone have the strength to love me? handle me? keep me standing on my feet for the time i'm alive? when i hear the phase i promise do i say okay? when a promise gets broken do i seek for help? or do i keep it held hostage inside of me i don't know when i cry can anyone cure my tears? when i cry can anyone wipe them away with no restrictions? when i say i love you to people do they take it seriously? do they hear it?do they truely know i mean it i dont know when i shutdown does anyone understand why? but again the question is do i even understand either again i dont know.