Listening to these thought screaming  songs and this lyrical stage has been traveled by less and less. Too busy searching for what you want more more.  These wishspers of calming love songs are nearly silent and the  generations gaping the distant from where love made a difference.  Loyalty lost by some abandoned place where they left him where they left me. You speak of betrayal and the shouted the wrongs that been done , so you think. let me tell you about betrayal. We are all caught on this path .This was Programmed before we could learn to feel.  We think we fight in this life for morals and truths. When we are dealt lies and false beliefs from the beginning. I was learning . I was turning ,my heart is hurting. My mind is burning, some would say my soul. These thoughts. Never subside. As the smoking memories of human capabilities; Destroys every thing good. I just loved her wildly, deeply. Forever and for eternity. I play a game of make believe ever after. Tears they well ,as the songs screams love truth , in its true definition.  As love comforts my tears and holds them safe. I still learn.  I still yearn. I still burn, forever my heart is  yours.

I'm just like an angel that never had wings, an angel that got forced fed while tied to a cross of hate. I see the mystery soul, taking control. I simply hear, no sounds so familiar. Self chosen alone, isolation-iconoclast forming inside a broke heart. Breathing no more. Truth, one separates life and death. I'm missing, chose to leave. Just one dot on society of misery. A ripple upon the water of life, I sit there PTSD ****** me through the *** hold of my *****. It burns like some sexually transmitted disease. Over and over they whip me with words and judgements. Lashing at my flesh and emotions. I cry no more. I abuse myself to their satisfaction.

I have been lost,alone so long, buried in a tomb of lies. Buried with all your thoughts, that ***** me of my life. I sit alone, decaying from the inside. Smoke fills the room, I see my tomb. My life lost, comfort of death is not my gift. I travel in this mystery, I change my life, my tears they scar my every thought. This, is what deeply touched my misery. These cards fall from the air. I listen to the spirit of all my despair. Clinging to my energy. I choose to jump, I leave now in silence, softly awake for once.

Sounds like water so peaceful, silenced. Empty me like another bottle. I seek to be free, but there is no end. The pain doesn't seem to die. Trust in god, a lie; I lay waiting for what they said  to be true. It never happened. Just like the nights I waited for my life to end. My peaceful dreams as a child, was the dreams to die. What child dreams to die. Robbed from the beginning. Help me see, my life that is now here. I wish I could be there. Somewhere other then where I am. I say,I'm not scared, but they all know I'm in fear. The spirits dwell, in this waiting game. My eyes blinded by the imaginary time, still dreaming, silenced, still dreaming silenced.

We are just little pieces of a complex tattoo. Smiling around the earth. One soul at a time. One mind intertwined. Seeking and searching looking for more. Until one day he opens the door. The door to life, the bed of death. Where we are going ,we will never rest. Revenge on my tongue,I taste her sweet. I lick the death that melts between. Listen ,shhhh he is coming again, again I say, lower your head, bow before , kiss my hand, and **** me more. I eat you out with lustful eyes. Longing to go deep between you thighs. Your soul is mine and mine is yours. Our power brings down ,all locked doors. They shiver , they scream  nightmares of life. For now it's their turn to never die

Paranoia increasing, these faces ,they take me. Reality missing, I'm away in my grave. I see them,  by the railroad tracks. Lined up one by one, closer i command. My spirit , haunts them, one by one I command. Inch by inch on that track. Their legs sit on the tracks. As my train of revenge makes me smile. Sounds of ripping skin, cracking bones. Their screams make up for all my frightful moans, as a child they tore me apart. I screamed, I cried. Now I laugh, at the blood they leave. Their terror is just one of my missing peieces of joy. Now I sit fat, like after thanksgiving feast.Filled and feed by their hell, their torture. Oh you sick molesters , it's not over, I will be hungry again for more of your pain. Smiling a hurt boy, can now smile.

I already know that I'm dead, just waiting to die. Say goodbye, sleep walk, talk. Hand signals, a stiff *******. Every kiss is a lie. My night, sings tomorrow's laughs. Crying for the deaf to hear, dark soul man. Silenced.